Sit down...
I do this more for you...than I do for me. Spelling and Punctuation are disregarded. So. Excuse them.
I am not entirely sure what I want to say, but I want to type. Humor me. I dream of death and live of life.
I dream of things that have been but with better colors and better situations.
My life, rightnow, is better than I could have imagined.
It is the woods, snow, cold, heat, real, blue, orange, let go. A million others.
This all recycles in my head - again, I am not sure of the value, like the value of real recycling - it can all end tomorrow. What is the value of reusing glass if the world ends in flames? Mold?
I can hear the seconds tick down. And they are glorious. Every value - (i always heard, you see) but now. Now I am learning...that it is not a curse...but such a blessing. Fuck it all. Let it play out like it needs to...I am here to learn - to be. Fuck the seconds, the minutes, they matter not. It matter that I notice. I give Thanks. I give thanks for every lesson, for it all.
This is where I need to be. Whatever mistakes, whatever sins, whatever black marks, here I am. I am whole, I can feel my fingers, my toes, my spleen.
Whatever happens, in this moment (?), I was perfect. Let it be known.
I am not entirely sure what I want to say, but I want to type. Humor me. I dream of death and live of life.
I dream of things that have been but with better colors and better situations.
My life, rightnow, is better than I could have imagined.
It is the woods, snow, cold, heat, real, blue, orange, let go. A million others.
This all recycles in my head - again, I am not sure of the value, like the value of real recycling - it can all end tomorrow. What is the value of reusing glass if the world ends in flames? Mold?
I can hear the seconds tick down. And they are glorious. Every value - (i always heard, you see) but now. Now I am learning...that it is not a curse...but such a blessing. Fuck it all. Let it play out like it needs to...I am here to learn - to be. Fuck the seconds, the minutes, they matter not. It matter that I notice. I give Thanks. I give thanks for every lesson, for it all.
This is where I need to be. Whatever mistakes, whatever sins, whatever black marks, here I am. I am whole, I can feel my fingers, my toes, my spleen.
Whatever happens, in this moment (?), I was perfect. Let it be known.