Janus
This has been a trying year in many ways. I'm not dead, in jail or in a hospital, and that means it's been a good year too. I feel like I've grown tremendously as a human being, and, lucky as I am to have them around me, I feel the people in my life have too. People have come and people have gone, old doors closed and new ones opened. I got a job, I settled on a major, I left the dojo. I've forged a path, but left nothing behind except tears. New from old, I've taken my dreams and ambitions and seeing where they really are needed and deserved channeled them. The distant past was cracked wide open for me and Jen and I'm more surprised by the fact that it was healing than we survived it - we've always survived, but what did not kill us did not always make us stronger. I will remember this is as the year that I learned to love again, fully and unconditionally, to confront the a past I'd forgotten, and the year that the way of the Buddhas opened itself to me unmistakably and unambiguously as the sky brought gentle snow. Looking back, moving forward, living here and now.