Because you never see my smile;
Title: Because you never see my smile;
[PG 13] Angst(?), friendship
Reader x any sj member I guess -_- I'm so indecisive.
Summary: You know you can never be with him but inside your heart, you just hope,that maybe one day he will really see your smile.
Sometimes you ask yourself why you still hope. Maybe it was because you really love him, or maybe because occasionally he will make you think that he returns your feelings. But every time you start hoping, he would crush your hopes unknowingly. You will still hope anyway, only to be crushed by him again, like the countless of times you've already been.
Deep down in your heart, you secretly hope, no, you want him to have a breakup, you want to be able to tell him that you love him, you want to tell him to let you try to heal his shattered heart, but each time he comes crying to you, you haven't the heart to tell him so. Instead, you would soothe him, rubbing circles on his back with a gentle whisper "It's okay." You would hear his screams, his sobs, you could feel his sorrow and would start to cry along too. "It's time to let go of him.." is what you originally wanted to tell him, but you threw that thought away many times to tell him that the breakup won't last long, you would encourage him to get back together.
That was your role, it always was your role.
But you came to realize that you can only be his best friend when he came bawling to you yet again. His head resting on your shoulder, tears streaming down and wetting your white shirt. You caressed his head, repeating what you've always told him.
"It's okay. You'll get back together again, I'm sure of it."
When he finally calmed down, his mumbled, "Thanks again.. It's really nice to have such a best friend."
It took you awhile to adjust to it, to being his best friend only. But you soon got used to it, you know you should always be there for him because no one else could calm him like you did. Occasionally when you see the sweet words coming out from their mouth you can't help but to feel this small pang in your chest, but you ignore it, and you will always ignore it. Because you are his best friend, you will always be his best friend. No matter how much sadness you bear, you must carry on with a smile on your face, even when he comes crying to you again, even when you see his brightest smile with him, even when his happiness is your sorrow.
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a/n: such a failure.
[PG 13] Angst(?), friendship
Reader x any sj member I guess -_- I'm so indecisive.
Summary: You know you can never be with him but inside your heart, you just hope,that maybe one day he will really see your smile.
Sometimes you ask yourself why you still hope. Maybe it was because you really love him, or maybe because occasionally he will make you think that he returns your feelings. But every time you start hoping, he would crush your hopes unknowingly. You will still hope anyway, only to be crushed by him again, like the countless of times you've already been.
Deep down in your heart, you secretly hope, no, you want him to have a breakup, you want to be able to tell him that you love him, you want to tell him to let you try to heal his shattered heart, but each time he comes crying to you, you haven't the heart to tell him so. Instead, you would soothe him, rubbing circles on his back with a gentle whisper "It's okay." You would hear his screams, his sobs, you could feel his sorrow and would start to cry along too. "It's time to let go of him.." is what you originally wanted to tell him, but you threw that thought away many times to tell him that the breakup won't last long, you would encourage him to get back together.
That was your role, it always was your role.
But you came to realize that you can only be his best friend when he came bawling to you yet again. His head resting on your shoulder, tears streaming down and wetting your white shirt. You caressed his head, repeating what you've always told him.
"It's okay. You'll get back together again, I'm sure of it."
When he finally calmed down, his mumbled, "Thanks again.. It's really nice to have such a best friend."
It took you awhile to adjust to it, to being his best friend only. But you soon got used to it, you know you should always be there for him because no one else could calm him like you did. Occasionally when you see the sweet words coming out from their mouth you can't help but to feel this small pang in your chest, but you ignore it, and you will always ignore it. Because you are his best friend, you will always be his best friend. No matter how much sadness you bear, you must carry on with a smile on your face, even when he comes crying to you again, even when you see his brightest smile with him, even when his happiness is your sorrow.
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a/n: such a failure.