Scathed by the bell.
It's been a while. I knew this was going to happen, lol. I can never maintain a journal.
School is just around the corner and it's making me nervous. I don't want to fuck up again like I did last time. I don't think I'll be able to handle it, and I don't want to disappoint my mother again. I want to make her proud. I want to make her love me. I want her to see that I'm NOT a piece of shit, that I can do well for myself, that I'm not the fuck-up she knows I am. I don't understand how Ryan got out of it unscathed but I ended up being such a fucking failure. He always seemed to not care what they thought of us. I just.. don't want to disappoint them. I'll do anything to make it up to them.
The Citalopram is making me itch.
Hello, school. Goodbye, security.
School is just around the corner and it's making me nervous. I don't want to fuck up again like I did last time. I don't think I'll be able to handle it, and I don't want to disappoint my mother again. I want to make her proud. I want to make her love me. I want her to see that I'm NOT a piece of shit, that I can do well for myself, that I'm not the fuck-up she knows I am. I don't understand how Ryan got out of it unscathed but I ended up being such a fucking failure. He always seemed to not care what they thought of us. I just.. don't want to disappoint them. I'll do anything to make it up to them.
The Citalopram is making me itch.
Hello, school. Goodbye, security.