cant breath
This cold shit is kickin my ass. I feel better minus my lungs are all fucked.
Alright i know i always say everything is crazy but seriously the past couple weeks really are the craziest. the other day i was saying how life feels like a book with a million chapters. and right now if feels like an end of a chapter, in my book anyways. and like i feel like a new one is starting to write itself.
Fuckin, its hard to let things go. I guess i just care alot or just way too much.
I feel like since im not going to school right now that i dunno. it like instills this fear into me. i feel like ill never reach my dreams and it leaves me wondering if ill even be good enough. cos in high school i felt like alright about it. but prolly only because of the teachers i had. but i guess i just have to grow up and act my age.
but really i hate birthdays. well i hate when my birthday is comming up because it makes me think alot. i always think a year back and ask myself what did i do. and i always think i did nothing. because i really didnt do much. its making me want to change everything. if i think about it everything makes me want to change everything ha if that even makes sense. i dunno im just a psyco.
i want to be a tattoo atrist. it would be so great. the only thing holding me back is that i would feel so horriable if i fucked someones tattoo up. cos i know how i would feel if someone messed mine up. I want to get a sleeve and a million other tattoos. but im just so anal about what i would get.
yeah now that i think about it, i dont even know why i just started to write all this. its some pointless shit. so yeah im done.
luvs.
Alright i know i always say everything is crazy but seriously the past couple weeks really are the craziest. the other day i was saying how life feels like a book with a million chapters. and right now if feels like an end of a chapter, in my book anyways. and like i feel like a new one is starting to write itself.
Fuckin, its hard to let things go. I guess i just care alot or just way too much.
I feel like since im not going to school right now that i dunno. it like instills this fear into me. i feel like ill never reach my dreams and it leaves me wondering if ill even be good enough. cos in high school i felt like alright about it. but prolly only because of the teachers i had. but i guess i just have to grow up and act my age.
but really i hate birthdays. well i hate when my birthday is comming up because it makes me think alot. i always think a year back and ask myself what did i do. and i always think i did nothing. because i really didnt do much. its making me want to change everything. if i think about it everything makes me want to change everything ha if that even makes sense. i dunno im just a psyco.
i want to be a tattoo atrist. it would be so great. the only thing holding me back is that i would feel so horriable if i fucked someones tattoo up. cos i know how i would feel if someone messed mine up. I want to get a sleeve and a million other tattoos. but im just so anal about what i would get.
yeah now that i think about it, i dont even know why i just started to write all this. its some pointless shit. so yeah im done.
luvs.