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[acertainsomeone]

i had a dream about you today. after we broke up i decided to fly back to london. this time however all my friends joined me, as well as people from work. we all lived in apartment buildings near each other, and a party was being planned. for some reason you decided to fly over but not speak to me. you sat in a room and no one knew what to say. suddenly i got a piece of paper from you, on it was photocopied excerpts of books. you circled words and phrases from the excepts to tell me that "i love you but i dont know what to say". i told the person i was with that i had to go talk to you, and then i woke up.

i wonder if i told you to give me back my clothes that used to be all over your bedroom, or the blowdryer that i had just bought on the way over to the last night i would ever spend over your house, i had bought it so i could stay over your house more often. you dont even know where i live right now.

sometimes i'm fine, and sometimes i'm not. today is a mixture.