life
Well to start things off, I have a back of an 87 year old. What's worse than the fact that it's come only 80 years too soon is the fact that it seems to be getting worse with every day that goes by. But whatever, hopefully I will be paying a nice little, very expensive, visit to the chiropractor.
I'm single again. Josh broke up with me tonight. It's funny how the people that you care most about are always the ones that hurt you the most. He told me that he still has feelings for his baby's mother, aka his ex-girlfriend... and that he thinks it would be better for the baby if he and his ex raised her together. I didn't cry... well, not until about half an hour ago. And that wasn't really even worthy of being called crying. I miss him, no joke, I was in love with him. And nothing's going to stop that, even though I'll never have him as mine again.
And then to add to the pain of heartbreak, having to sell my horse, everyone hating me, and God knows what else, my horse is sick. There's this friggen viral infection going around the barn right now... luckily Acey got his meds well before it could attack him as bad as it did for some of the other horses but I still can't ride him like most of the week. It wouldn't have been so bad if it weren't vacation week... but it is... and most of my life is being wasted away there. Not really complaining because I just have to walk through the barn door and I completely forget about everything else that's been happening. If only I could live at the barn 24/7, I wouldn't have to be so depressed and what not anymore.
I feel like writing a story, I haven't done that in... I don't even know how long. I suppose I could go and do that... maybe it'll help get some of this stress off my chest.
I'm single again. Josh broke up with me tonight. It's funny how the people that you care most about are always the ones that hurt you the most. He told me that he still has feelings for his baby's mother, aka his ex-girlfriend... and that he thinks it would be better for the baby if he and his ex raised her together. I didn't cry... well, not until about half an hour ago. And that wasn't really even worthy of being called crying. I miss him, no joke, I was in love with him. And nothing's going to stop that, even though I'll never have him as mine again.
And then to add to the pain of heartbreak, having to sell my horse, everyone hating me, and God knows what else, my horse is sick. There's this friggen viral infection going around the barn right now... luckily Acey got his meds well before it could attack him as bad as it did for some of the other horses but I still can't ride him like most of the week. It wouldn't have been so bad if it weren't vacation week... but it is... and most of my life is being wasted away there. Not really complaining because I just have to walk through the barn door and I completely forget about everything else that's been happening. If only I could live at the barn 24/7, I wouldn't have to be so depressed and what not anymore.
I feel like writing a story, I haven't done that in... I don't even know how long. I suppose I could go and do that... maybe it'll help get some of this stress off my chest.