Musings
Life is stable again for the time being. The family situation is all quiet on the western front, and I am actually doing rather well in all of my classes this semester. The last few weeks (other than break) have been kind of stressful in terms of workload but I'm really well caught up.
M2L is coming up this weekend, and to tell you the truth I'm really nervous. Way more nervous than I was last semester strangely enough, and I don't even have to give a talk or lead Sunday morning prayer or anything of that sort like last time around.
I was nervous last semester, certainly, but it was a different kind of nervousness. M2L was and still is one of the most important things in my life, and last semester all I was nervous because what I wanted more than anything was to deliver to the retreatants the same amazing experience I had when I went.
I'm still feeling that of course, but now there's another feeling I can't get away from (the good kind of nervousness though). I'm one of the historians this semester (as opposed to a cook last semester). And I've had to keep pretty up to date on when and who's been dropping so that I can redo the composite from time to time. Combined with having to scramble for registration and trying to get as many people I know to sign up has just really made me keenly aware of how delicately balanced everything is.
Anyway, that got me really thinking. I'm obviously not the only one this is really important to, there are 22 other people on team who care about this every bit as much as I do. And I know this will be especially important for Chrissy, Kelsey, Cara, Tim, Anne, Steph and Danielle since it's their first time as leaders. I want them to have the same amazing experience I had as a first time leader, so I've been doing whatever I can to try to make sure everything goes smoothly. I dunno, I know it's obviously not all on me by a long shot, but I'd feel like I'd be letting people down if I gave it anything less than everything I've got, and I can only hope that I've done enough.
I just really hope everything goes smoothly for everyone this weekend.
Alright, I ought to get to bed, tomorrow is going to be a long one.
Peace,
j
M2L is coming up this weekend, and to tell you the truth I'm really nervous. Way more nervous than I was last semester strangely enough, and I don't even have to give a talk or lead Sunday morning prayer or anything of that sort like last time around.
I was nervous last semester, certainly, but it was a different kind of nervousness. M2L was and still is one of the most important things in my life, and last semester all I was nervous because what I wanted more than anything was to deliver to the retreatants the same amazing experience I had when I went.
I'm still feeling that of course, but now there's another feeling I can't get away from (the good kind of nervousness though). I'm one of the historians this semester (as opposed to a cook last semester). And I've had to keep pretty up to date on when and who's been dropping so that I can redo the composite from time to time. Combined with having to scramble for registration and trying to get as many people I know to sign up has just really made me keenly aware of how delicately balanced everything is.
Anyway, that got me really thinking. I'm obviously not the only one this is really important to, there are 22 other people on team who care about this every bit as much as I do. And I know this will be especially important for Chrissy, Kelsey, Cara, Tim, Anne, Steph and Danielle since it's their first time as leaders. I want them to have the same amazing experience I had as a first time leader, so I've been doing whatever I can to try to make sure everything goes smoothly. I dunno, I know it's obviously not all on me by a long shot, but I'd feel like I'd be letting people down if I gave it anything less than everything I've got, and I can only hope that I've done enough.
I just really hope everything goes smoothly for everyone this weekend.
Alright, I ought to get to bed, tomorrow is going to be a long one.
Peace,
j