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How could someone who said they loved you enough to marry you, betray you so quickly? I got in a fist fight tonight, with someone who would rather run then stand up for theirselves. Instead he called his friends and in cowardly fashion i asked the police to resolve the issue. Instead of the woman who claimed she loved me for the past 2 years defending me she made sure I was sent on my way. How can feelings change so quickly. I find as I get older that the love is more important and that marriage is a definite outcome. I feel more hurt at 22 then I have ever in the rest of my life. From this point on I don't know where to go, all i can say is that i will be out more often and that the bottle will dictate the way I act if i ever come across a couple of fellows i know so little about. My friends who believe in me and loved courtney as much as i did will be there for me. So i have no worries. A new chapter begins, and hopefully i can avoid all the conflict that will most likely happen in the next few months. I feel i have to redeem myself and i most certainly will.
To those of you who felt they had to have their two cents in my relationship with another adult, I ask you to look at your relationships and love lifes and tell me how perfect they are, or how you achieve hapiness, because in the end we all make mistakes, and it's up to us to learn from them. Not up to other people to judge and influence how two human beings feel about eachother. I hope that those who sought to interfer realize what they have done, and i hope most of all they realize how little of a part i played in their relationships with others although i could have very well upset the balance.
We all fuck up, we all gossip, we all influence, but we all grow as well, and mature, and realize that we all have a hard time taking care of ourselves instead of worrying about others.
Goodnight
Matthew James Langan
To those of you who felt they had to have their two cents in my relationship with another adult, I ask you to look at your relationships and love lifes and tell me how perfect they are, or how you achieve hapiness, because in the end we all make mistakes, and it's up to us to learn from them. Not up to other people to judge and influence how two human beings feel about eachother. I hope that those who sought to interfer realize what they have done, and i hope most of all they realize how little of a part i played in their relationships with others although i could have very well upset the balance.
We all fuck up, we all gossip, we all influence, but we all grow as well, and mature, and realize that we all have a hard time taking care of ourselves instead of worrying about others.
Goodnight
Matthew James Langan