there is a point

[aceinthehole__]

where i have to get over my own shit and move
on with my life. i can't always be fucking
scared of everything, or question every action
i am about to take because if i continue that
my life is going to be a fucking waste. fuck,
i need my balls back. i don't know what the
fuck happened, but i need to figure out where
they went. i've never had this much difficulty
with anything in my entire life, but when it
comes to a girl i'm blowing it. WHY? because
i'm scared. i don't know what to do, are you
kidding? i know my options, i know which one
i think i want to take, but i have so many
questions and there are so many things that
could go wrong, but i need to just let go
of that. i can't let fear control my life,
but it does such a fucking good job of keeping
me out of pain.