[012] I deserved that...

[ace_0fspades]

There's just something absolutely gut-wrenching about no longer speaking to someone who once meant the world to you. It has nothing to do with left over romantic feelings, unresolved issue or how horribly things ended. Something about losing someone who has a part of you and was a part of your life creates a hole that only they can fill. I don't want to feel like I am missing pieces forever, but it seems like there are some problems that just cannot be fixed between two people.

I am happy.  For the most part.  I should be fine where I am.  But I just...

Am I destined to feel incomplete? Is it a weakness that I cannot help but feel this gravitating pull towards people who hurt me or those who I hurt?

It seems like a cruel joke.