Wade
wade
i am sooo sorry. i never wanted to hurt u and i dont want you to hate me. I didnt kno how much you meant to me till you started to hate me, and then i realized how sick i felt not knowing when the next time i would talk to you would be. i hate that i blew it, and i really want to make it up to. you dunt evn know how much i wanted to make you happy and how much i didnt want to hurt you. i wish i hadn't lied but i didnt want you to come over and it not be what you wanted. you probly dunt understand my reasoning but it seemed like a good idea at the time. in retrospect it was probly one of the stoopidest things i have done. i kno alot of what i have done has been super shitty and its hard to believe u havent done this before. but i kno what you really felt and its easiest to hurt those u kno (or rather think) will always be there for u. i kno i shouldnt have done the things i did and i really do hope you'll forgive me. i've been thro alot of shit lately and i dunt kno if i could handle losing you too. i dunt think im strong enough for that, as much as i'd like to think i am.i now have my phone on and will attempt to stay awake. please call me. i wanna talk.
more or less i wanna hear you talk.
please, please. i dunt evn kno what else to say. just dunt shut me out. i can be better, i can be different.
i hate that im crying, and that i cant stop. and that im thinking about you so much. i feel like we've broken up even though we werent reali going out.
i hate it, i realli do.
and rite now i hate myself for doing what i've done to you.
please dont shut me out...please
Love Always and Forever Emma <3
i am sooo sorry. i never wanted to hurt u and i dont want you to hate me. I didnt kno how much you meant to me till you started to hate me, and then i realized how sick i felt not knowing when the next time i would talk to you would be. i hate that i blew it, and i really want to make it up to. you dunt evn know how much i wanted to make you happy and how much i didnt want to hurt you. i wish i hadn't lied but i didnt want you to come over and it not be what you wanted. you probly dunt understand my reasoning but it seemed like a good idea at the time. in retrospect it was probly one of the stoopidest things i have done. i kno alot of what i have done has been super shitty and its hard to believe u havent done this before. but i kno what you really felt and its easiest to hurt those u kno (or rather think) will always be there for u. i kno i shouldnt have done the things i did and i really do hope you'll forgive me. i've been thro alot of shit lately and i dunt kno if i could handle losing you too. i dunt think im strong enough for that, as much as i'd like to think i am.i now have my phone on and will attempt to stay awake. please call me. i wanna talk.
more or less i wanna hear you talk.
please, please. i dunt evn kno what else to say. just dunt shut me out. i can be better, i can be different.
i hate that im crying, and that i cant stop. and that im thinking about you so much. i feel like we've broken up even though we werent reali going out.
i hate it, i realli do.
and rite now i hate myself for doing what i've done to you.
please dont shut me out...please
Love Always and Forever Emma <3