fuck everything

[ace26669]

today sucked so has very other day. im getting extremly depressed and i dont like it. almost every time i get close to getting a job it backfires in my face and yet every one around me can find one no problem? what the fuck is wrong with me. i think after the end of this month im going to find a way to pay josh rent and bills and then im going to leave. i just cant keep going like this. every time i get something going for me something else has to be going real shity. i send out applications online every day and evey time i go some where if there hiring i'll pick up an app. i dont get it sometimes, i know i didnt get the best schooling and i know im not good at my writing and reading knowledge but the thing i do know is should count. i fucked up a survay "a survay"(something that should have nothing to do with wether or not i get hired) and the manager told me he wanted to hire me and he still wants to hir me but he cant becouse the company that issued the survay said that i didnt know shit.this was for auto zone. ok i guess i dont know fucking shit about cars becouse thats what the survay company sais.bull shit and go fuck yourelf
i cant even get a job at the zoo becouse in dont have a high school deploma or a ged. how fucking smart do you have to be to stock supplies or shovel shit all day.i hate people.
i cant even get a decent girl right now becouse im to fucking stupid or i fucked up in the past. ive changed but i guess that doesnt matter in the eyes of others. so heres to all of you that think of me as the way i was in the past... fuck off say it to face i need to kill n-e-ways. god im pissed. fuck everything!im out