Joy pops like a bubble but I love life...
This is part reflection, and part planning...
I just want to put down that things are going so well right now in my and R's relationship. Granted...we are a country apart, but I feel like this challenge he is taking n, plus the distance is really causing us to focus on what's important...supporting each other. Sometimes I feel like its me doing all of the supporting because I know R is struggling with his challenge (as all of them are), but then I remember that love is selfless, and that R does care about me...and his way of showing it is usually, but especially now, subtle. He tells me that he loves me. He tells me that he thinks about me constantly....and most importantly, he tells me that the things I say to him help. It feels good to know that I can have a positive impact on him. My heart bleeds when I hear he is suffering, and to know that I did even the most minute of things to bring him up a little is really worth a billion times more than that.
It is hard to be away from R, but I am learning to enjoy this process in some strange ways. I'm taking it for what it is, and reminding myself to be patient, and present for myself and R. I'm enjoying the journey itself - it's hard, but there is so much good coming out of both this battle, and the reward n the end.
On the planning end...
I want to make a commitment to myself to follow through on some goals, especially now that I have all the blessing of time to focus on me :)
I want to get back to eating healthy..I want to cook a good healthy meal and treat myself at least 5 nights of the week.
I want to get to the gym regularly too...at lest doing a workout 6 days a week
I want to pursue working in Pensacola...really go after it with tenacity!!
I want to keep up with my skin healing...I'm getting better, but day by day I want to shed old bad habits of picking at myself
...the are more things, but I'll have a lucid dream tonight (-_-) and write more later...
In love with life,
:)
Posted via LiveJournal app for iPad.