Im real confused {please please comment}
I just dont know whats wrong.I feel weak as i haven't been drinking alot lately u see,my mum has to remind me to have a drink {not as in alcohole}, and also i dont have a social life at all, my brother who is younger than me is out all the time,at the park, the shops, with friends, he most proberbly has a girfriend.I just dont seem to go out and my dad has mentioned it before, i ring people but there always out, i feel trapped inside and theres no-way out, i have nill social life,its a real fact.I never go to the cinema anymore, never go shopping,Sarah and kelly are always out and i get so upset, i have to make more friends.But i have alot of friends just not all close and like i wouldn't really ring them up or anything, as there not that type of friends, there just there to talk to at school and to have a laugh with.I do go to an after school club, my trampolining and i get along with the girls there, maybe i should ask one of them or somehting,as emmas really nice and all,also i need to do something with my two closest friends, Sarah and kelly,but i feel Sarahs drifting away, she has a next door neighbour called mandy and shes really nice but i feel im going out of the picture,When Sarahs with Kelly they always laugh and everything,but when kelly wasn't there all week we hardley ever laugh at all, its really depresssing and scary,i just want to cry.Kelly is always with Alex so she never really sees Sarah or me at weekends, its times like this when i almost want to start my hole friends thing and move to Aussie or something, as there have been talks about.I need to see beckky m, as well as she shares the same interests with me, but shes just lovely and i expect shes always out and stuff so there will be no time for me.
I tried Tampons as well,they canned but hey i did it, well almost i kinda pulled them straight out again.IM sorry u really dint want to know that and all but im not really being that thoughtfull to over people today.My brothers out, with dad but he was with friends before, i just sit at home watching episodes of friends and MTV cribs, i hate it but i have nothing else to do,I spend to much time on the net witch has got to stop,what i basically mean to say is i need to get out more, but i just cant.My nan asked me if i was going out tonight and i obviously said no, Luke nearly always goes out at the weekends, i dont as im just a skinny lil freak and i hate it.And for the record im crying.
Also you are most proberbly wondering why i was listening to britney this moring or whenever i last wrote on this LJ thingyy.Everytime makes me feel sad and i dunno, theres a fit man in the video so thats my excuse,god this is so long but i would really appreciate it if u would read it.Also may i say Heidi i no how your feeling,u just have to read this.I cant believe i am in on a saturday dood ;|, i could be in topshop dressing in clothes that i wuld never normally wear with my mates, ot buying posters and CDs in woolworths or something, but instead im writting to online friends who are shocked at how crap my life is and will never speak to me any more and delete me off there friends list forever.
You see back in feb i feel out with this bych of a mate and i hated her so so much you see and then she hit Sarah so i was so annoyed and it just topped everything off.And since then i haven't gone out.I just need friends at the moment i want a hetic social life were i go out and have fun, not watching Tv and listening to Dan the hit man.I just want to g out shopping with beckky or Sarah or Kelly and just have fun, to get away with things.
Thanks for listening
At night i pray,to hope your face will fade away
Everytime i try, to fly i fall without my wings, i feel so small,
I guess i need you baby.
And everytime i see u in my dreams i see your face, its haunting me,
I guess i need you baby.
i just for some reason feel i realate to it.blah xx
I tried Tampons as well,they canned but hey i did it, well almost i kinda pulled them straight out again.IM sorry u really dint want to know that and all but im not really being that thoughtfull to over people today.My brothers out, with dad but he was with friends before, i just sit at home watching episodes of friends and MTV cribs, i hate it but i have nothing else to do,I spend to much time on the net witch has got to stop,what i basically mean to say is i need to get out more, but i just cant.My nan asked me if i was going out tonight and i obviously said no, Luke nearly always goes out at the weekends, i dont as im just a skinny lil freak and i hate it.And for the record im crying.
Also you are most proberbly wondering why i was listening to britney this moring or whenever i last wrote on this LJ thingyy.Everytime makes me feel sad and i dunno, theres a fit man in the video so thats my excuse,god this is so long but i would really appreciate it if u would read it.Also may i say Heidi i no how your feeling,u just have to read this.I cant believe i am in on a saturday dood ;|, i could be in topshop dressing in clothes that i wuld never normally wear with my mates, ot buying posters and CDs in woolworths or something, but instead im writting to online friends who are shocked at how crap my life is and will never speak to me any more and delete me off there friends list forever.
You see back in feb i feel out with this bych of a mate and i hated her so so much you see and then she hit Sarah so i was so annoyed and it just topped everything off.And since then i haven't gone out.I just need friends at the moment i want a hetic social life were i go out and have fun, not watching Tv and listening to Dan the hit man.I just want to g out shopping with beckky or Sarah or Kelly and just have fun, to get away with things.
Thanks for listening
At night i pray,to hope your face will fade away
Everytime i try, to fly i fall without my wings, i feel so small,
I guess i need you baby.
And everytime i see u in my dreams i see your face, its haunting me,
I guess i need you baby.
i just for some reason feel i realate to it.blah xx