Being conflicted (WAS: That was worth staying out late...)
(8:46am) I may only have 4 hours of sleep under my belt, but believe me I felt it was worth it!
Will shamelessly flirting get me anywhere? I doubt it. But! It is so very much fun.
~J
EDIT (5:29pm) - ZOMG, I think I very well could be the happiest person ever right now!!!!!!
EDIT (6:54pm) - I hate being conflicted with polar opposite emotions. A large part of me is extremely ecstatic because my self-esteem has been proven wrong (I don't want to jinx this, so no details yet). However, another large part of me is extremely sad and depressed because I found out less than an hour ago that my Aunt has extreme heart problems. Problems they don't know if they can fix. This has me extremely worried. My dad died of Heart Failure and Janet's had a history of heart problems already. This has me REALLY worried. I know it really doesn't do me any good to worry, but this is something that scares me. My Aunt is relatively young (55 is not that old) and she's one of the most alive people I've had in my life. It makes me very upset to think that it won't be long until she's otherwise (yes i KNOW that's morbid, but that doesn't stop my brain from thinking it). I'm scared.
So i'm bouncing from one feeling to another and it's exhausting, so I'm going to take a nap before Mechaman and his old roommate get here to hang out with me.
Will shamelessly flirting get me anywhere? I doubt it. But! It is so very much fun.
~J
EDIT (5:29pm) - ZOMG, I think I very well could be the happiest person ever right now!!!!!!
EDIT (6:54pm) - I hate being conflicted with polar opposite emotions. A large part of me is extremely ecstatic because my self-esteem has been proven wrong (I don't want to jinx this, so no details yet). However, another large part of me is extremely sad and depressed because I found out less than an hour ago that my Aunt has extreme heart problems. Problems they don't know if they can fix. This has me extremely worried. My dad died of Heart Failure and Janet's had a history of heart problems already. This has me REALLY worried. I know it really doesn't do me any good to worry, but this is something that scares me. My Aunt is relatively young (55 is not that old) and she's one of the most alive people I've had in my life. It makes me very upset to think that it won't be long until she's otherwise (yes i KNOW that's morbid, but that doesn't stop my brain from thinking it). I'm scared.
So i'm bouncing from one feeling to another and it's exhausting, so I'm going to take a nap before Mechaman and his old roommate get here to hang out with me.