Aug 18, 2007 23:40
You guys are probably sick of hearing this, so just stop reading if you feel like it. I really don't mind. I just need to rant.
AGH! I like Zane SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much. I can't stand it. I think about him at least once a minute during the day. It's stupid!
He's leaving on Wednesday, and I start school on Monday, and my mom's birthday is tomorrow, so I pretty much won't get to see him before he leaves for fucking PUEBLO.
I've been talking to Kim about him, and she thinks he might like me, based upon the way he was acting when he, Kerry, and I went to the museum on Thursday. He called me dear a couple times, and he said something about "Stop slowing down traffic Paige!", and Kerry (I'm pretty sure it was Kerry) said "With your hotness!" and he didn't contest it. And he kept saying it. But then on our way to my house after dropping Kerry off, we had a strange conversation, if I heard him correctly.
Zane: Jeez, you suck, AND you blow! You could get any guy!
Paige: I guess not *shrugs* (not implying anything towards Zane, just mankind
in general.
Zane: Well, I'm not ANY guy.
Paige: I never said you... *stutters and mumbles a bit* *stares out window*
You win.
Zane: (this is where I wasn't sure exactly what he said, because he said it
really fast and quiet) Well, see, because I always win and you always
lose, we can never go out!
Paige: What did you say? (I honestly didn't understand him)
Zane: What, you didn't hear me?
Paige and Zane banter back and forth for the rest of the drive, with the end result that Zane never clarified what he said, and Paige pretty much stormed out of the car. Zane did say goodbye, however, rather cheerfully. Ugh.
Then today, he got my little present for him, and he seemed genuinely happy. I sent him a box of crayons, because when I had been asking him to hang out on Thursday, he kept dancing around it, until I said "You win!" and he asked what his prize was. I asked him what he wanted, and he told me crayons, so I sent him crayons.
Kim asked me tonight if I've made out with him, and I was like, "Of course not! I've only known him a short time, and hung out with him even less."
But I won't lie, it's crossed my mind like at least thirty times every time I've hung out with him, and about ten or so times a day when I'm not around him.
I don't want him to go to Pueblo without us having talked about this, but I'm not sure that's such a good idea...
*sigh* *ANGSTS* Why me?
Paige
I have a personal vendetta against all humankind
angst,
romance,
indecisiveness