sick and bored
are any of my other suitemates sick right now? because i am sick as hell. my throat started hurting before i left, but i thought it was just because i was yelling a lot when me and brittlepoetry were debunking the beds. but no. now i am constantly blowing my nose and coughing. boo.
i get so lazy and bored here. my parents are at work. my friends(the few i have left) are busy. it's too hot to go outside. honestly, if i had schoolwork to do, i would do it right now, because that's how bored i am.
yesterday my excitement was going to the dentist. apparently, or so their records showed, i hadn't been there since late november of 2003. that's a long time to go without seeing the dentist. i think their records are wrong though. then, since i had driven to clovis anyway, i went to oriental express and got a lunch to eat today, because they have the really good orange chicken, and i was craving it. the guy still recognized me. (that should give you an idea of how often i went there in high school.) i told him that i go to school in santa barbara now, so i can't come as often, but i still miss their orange chicken because it's the best. they were happy. i also watched "the producers" last night with my parents. it was ok. the original was much better. matthew broderick has nothing on gene wilder. most of the cast did a good job though, it just dragged a bit.
ooh! i did buy this shirt:
which the lovely corin tucker is wearing. i also bought the poster for "all hands on the bad one". and they (killrockstars) sent a whole bunch of stickers too. so that was fun.
the night before last, i was thinking of all the stuff i want to accomplish in my life, and i really don't know how i'm going to do it all. it's not fair. it feels like you're expected to do so much between 20 and 30 years old. you're expected to finish school. you're expected to get married and have a family. i really want to go into the peace corps, and most people do that when they're right out of college. but the career i want to go into doesn't make that easy. when i finish my undergraduate school, i'll probably work as a vet technician for at least a couple years to save up for vet school. then, assuming i get into vet school, i'll be at least 28 when i'm finally done. then, assuming i have someone that i would actually consider having a family with, what am i supposed to do? take time off from my brand new prestigious vet job to have a kid? it feels like i would have to make a choice, to devote myself to my job, or devote myself to my family. and it's not fair, because it's much easier for a man to handle something like that. it's not even that i feel obligated to have children. i sincerely want children. i see what my brother and his wife has, and i want that. eventually. but i also want to be good at my job. i could just stop after getting a bachelor's degree, but it doesn't seem right that i should have to settle for something less of myself. i know lots of people have kids in their thirties, but even then, it doesn't give me much time to have a career. it's silly to worry about this stuff now, but i can't help planning out my life.
i get so lazy and bored here. my parents are at work. my friends(the few i have left) are busy. it's too hot to go outside. honestly, if i had schoolwork to do, i would do it right now, because that's how bored i am.
yesterday my excitement was going to the dentist. apparently, or so their records showed, i hadn't been there since late november of 2003. that's a long time to go without seeing the dentist. i think their records are wrong though. then, since i had driven to clovis anyway, i went to oriental express and got a lunch to eat today, because they have the really good orange chicken, and i was craving it. the guy still recognized me. (that should give you an idea of how often i went there in high school.) i told him that i go to school in santa barbara now, so i can't come as often, but i still miss their orange chicken because it's the best. they were happy. i also watched "the producers" last night with my parents. it was ok. the original was much better. matthew broderick has nothing on gene wilder. most of the cast did a good job though, it just dragged a bit.
ooh! i did buy this shirt:
which the lovely corin tucker is wearing. i also bought the poster for "all hands on the bad one". and they (killrockstars) sent a whole bunch of stickers too. so that was fun.
the night before last, i was thinking of all the stuff i want to accomplish in my life, and i really don't know how i'm going to do it all. it's not fair. it feels like you're expected to do so much between 20 and 30 years old. you're expected to finish school. you're expected to get married and have a family. i really want to go into the peace corps, and most people do that when they're right out of college. but the career i want to go into doesn't make that easy. when i finish my undergraduate school, i'll probably work as a vet technician for at least a couple years to save up for vet school. then, assuming i get into vet school, i'll be at least 28 when i'm finally done. then, assuming i have someone that i would actually consider having a family with, what am i supposed to do? take time off from my brand new prestigious vet job to have a kid? it feels like i would have to make a choice, to devote myself to my job, or devote myself to my family. and it's not fair, because it's much easier for a man to handle something like that. it's not even that i feel obligated to have children. i sincerely want children. i see what my brother and his wife has, and i want that. eventually. but i also want to be good at my job. i could just stop after getting a bachelor's degree, but it doesn't seem right that i should have to settle for something less of myself. i know lots of people have kids in their thirties, but even then, it doesn't give me much time to have a career. it's silly to worry about this stuff now, but i can't help planning out my life.