all the pain held in your...
I have always been told that no matter how successful you were in high school, don't let the success die. Continue to grow and expand upon yourself in college and be someone. After visiting the high school yesterday and today again to see Ms. Woo, I realized that it really is going to be hard to expand myself into who I am going to be for the rest of my life. I feel like I had such a great time enjoying every last bit high school had to offer and then once its over, i have to continue?? As soon I returned back to my car, I heard the words echo over the speakers..
"when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along"
I think the All American Rejects were hoping for a graduation song for the masses when they were writing this one. Move Along, even when your hope is goe, Move Along. It is what I have to do. Every second I heard people yelling my name, I was wanted. Now that I am leaving, people seem to be continuing to go through their daily lives without me and I feel as if I will be missing out. I feel neglected, but I know that this is life and this is what happens.
I almost feel like some people took my friendship for granted and used me for status. Honestly, with graduating comes a loss of friendship, something that most definately should not happen, shouldnt it be the other way around? I feel bad for leaving at a time when Krystal needs me the most. She has been a sister to me and I am going to leave her with all the pain in the world. I say goodbye to people and see that they aren't hurting as bad as i am. What's wrong with me?
I don't want to be a failure in college. I want people to know who I am, but I don't want it to take so effing long. I am the kind of person who needs people around them 85% of the time, will it happen? Probably not, in college. And once I get back to my dorm room and I see that all these high schoolers online have away messages up that say something happy and fulfilling, I will at once realize that I belong in college. I cant keep living in the past.
Everyone knows that Ms.Woo gives the best advice. She told me many things today but there is one I remember in particular. She told me to be gentle in college. People there don't know who I am, and how I act. She said that sometimes on first impressions I can be a little abrupt. Okay, I say. I agree. I am going to leave on Sunday with a smile on my face and be ready to continue my life, with or without support from some people at Bow High School.
"when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along"
I think the All American Rejects were hoping for a graduation song for the masses when they were writing this one. Move Along, even when your hope is goe, Move Along. It is what I have to do. Every second I heard people yelling my name, I was wanted. Now that I am leaving, people seem to be continuing to go through their daily lives without me and I feel as if I will be missing out. I feel neglected, but I know that this is life and this is what happens.
I almost feel like some people took my friendship for granted and used me for status. Honestly, with graduating comes a loss of friendship, something that most definately should not happen, shouldnt it be the other way around? I feel bad for leaving at a time when Krystal needs me the most. She has been a sister to me and I am going to leave her with all the pain in the world. I say goodbye to people and see that they aren't hurting as bad as i am. What's wrong with me?
I don't want to be a failure in college. I want people to know who I am, but I don't want it to take so effing long. I am the kind of person who needs people around them 85% of the time, will it happen? Probably not, in college. And once I get back to my dorm room and I see that all these high schoolers online have away messages up that say something happy and fulfilling, I will at once realize that I belong in college. I cant keep living in the past.
Everyone knows that Ms.Woo gives the best advice. She told me many things today but there is one I remember in particular. She told me to be gentle in college. People there don't know who I am, and how I act. She said that sometimes on first impressions I can be a little abrupt. Okay, I say. I agree. I am going to leave on Sunday with a smile on my face and be ready to continue my life, with or without support from some people at Bow High School.