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I'm so near the point of BEYOND EXHAUSTION...
Today should have been Friday since I worked all day Sunday...but tomorrow is another off-and running from the moment the alarm sounds (maybe I should sleep in my skechers?!)
Been mulling over realtionships in my head... just when I think I've gotten over someone...BAM... I remember how a year ago I thought I would die without him. Now it's best to not go back even though there is a small tug at my heart when I see him; he calls or texts.
Now I sit terrified of this new thing in my life. There was a spark like I hadn't seen in forever... then it's like someone hit the stop button. Now it's dormant. I'm standing in darkness and lost. I don't know what to do. Tif says to just keep breathing.... sometimes I forget :).
The state of my "health limbo" worries me. As do the chest pains. I'M TOO YOUNG FOR ALL THIS--even my doctor says so.
I just want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want to sleep for days, weeks. I want to cry until there's nothing left of me.
I feel so broken. :-(
Today should have been Friday since I worked all day Sunday...but tomorrow is another off-and running from the moment the alarm sounds (maybe I should sleep in my skechers?!)
Been mulling over realtionships in my head... just when I think I've gotten over someone...BAM... I remember how a year ago I thought I would die without him. Now it's best to not go back even though there is a small tug at my heart when I see him; he calls or texts.
Now I sit terrified of this new thing in my life. There was a spark like I hadn't seen in forever... then it's like someone hit the stop button. Now it's dormant. I'm standing in darkness and lost. I don't know what to do. Tif says to just keep breathing.... sometimes I forget :).
The state of my "health limbo" worries me. As do the chest pains. I'M TOO YOUNG FOR ALL THIS--even my doctor says so.
I just want to scream at the top of my lungs. I want to sleep for days, weeks. I want to cry until there's nothing left of me.
I feel so broken. :-(