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20. I honestly believe there is no higher nor more solemn oath than a pinkie swear.
19. I had pet lobsters as a kid. Not, like, full-size. Babies. They weren't the most cuddly varmits but they were easy to get attached to. I'll never eat lobster. To me, you might as well eat Lassie or Flipper. And I always have a maniacal urge to free the lobsters from the tank at the grocery store.
18. My father has been married 6 times. I've had more step-siblings than I can count. Ironically, I'm a biological only child and have never actually lived with any of my step-siblings (save one sister for a few weeks, recently), so I really have no idea what it's like to have siblings. Huh. Irony.
17. I like my JTHM Over the Stars icon, although I seem to be the only one. It is a little... severe. Sorry. (And I was gonna use it here but when you end an LJ post like this one, and you use an icon like that one, it can sometimes create more general chaos than it's worth. Do not be alarmed.)
16. I believe you can tell everything there is to know about a person by the way they treat any lesser being, especially animals. Examples:
-- A person who would give away his daughter's dog without even telling her because it was "giving him allergies" (all the way from its home in the backyard! wow!) then try to subdue the resulting fire and brimstone by offering to buy her a new puppy (because he didn't even get the name of the people he gave her dog to) is the same type of person who will marry 6 times in 10 years, sometimes divorcing wives for things like opening a bottle of champagne he was saving for New Years or refusing to change her religion (something it's best to think about before getting married).
-- A person who will go out of their way to move a turtle to the side of the road or who raises baby birds that have fallen out of their nests can usually be trusted - and not just with the little things in life either. These are, generally, the people who are in your corner whether you're wrong or right and God help anyone who tries to stop them.
-- Me? Sometimes I don't feed the dog until noon. Not all the time, mind you, or even usually. Just occasionally. I'll walk by the window in the morning and see him sitting by his bowl, looking loyal and trusting like a dog does, and yet I can't always be arsed to go feed him until I'm done with sitting around with my thumb in my ass or whatever it is I do. I'm also the type of person who will turn in assignments a week late or promise my mother to do a chore but take all day to get around to it.
15. I am a perfectionist. ... Just not in the traditional way. Like, I don't mind fucking around with housework and you probably shouldn't examine the numbering of this list too carefully but I still have this slight urge to murder people when they pick up a book or whatever from a shelf in my room and put it back in the wrong place or when someone says they'll call and they don't. It's like a little itch in my brain. AN ITCH IN MY BRAIN. ...... Okay. Ignore all of this. No, really. Moving right along.
15. I am a perfectionist.
14. I've always had a thing for blood. This was way before I knew of crazy Anne Rice and way before the trendy kindergoths took over MTV. I love the taste, smell, sight, and texture of it. Especially the taste. I love the various ways there are to, uh... acquire it. When I have to have blood drawn at the doctor's, I can't even look away; I just stare and admire. Some people find this attractive or mysterious or something until they find out I'm serious.
13. I've taken off my watch maybe 5 times in the last two years (it's waterproof).
42. I loathe most rules and regulations on principle.
15. Sometimes, I can see exactly how pissed my family is that, because of despite their best efforts, I still turned out, well, like me. They usually do a good job of hiding it coz it's part of their overall thing where they like to appear icy and superior to everyone around them. I could take forever to describe it but just think Family Malfoy and you'll have a good idea. I went along with it for a while, before I knew better. Although...
I can still take one look at a person and immediately see all their flaws, weaknesses, and insecurities. I quit playing that fucked up game a long time ago, but it's still kind of a good feeling to know that, should the need ever arise, I could verbally eviscerate someone with just a few words. That's why I just smile and nod when someone tries to use my geekery and/or fondness for Harry Pottery/etc against me. I silently pray they step over the line so I can have some fun. That's probably not healthy.
14. My life is haunted by strange encounters with birds. Example: When I was four, I was at a family picnic and had the random thought that maybe people turn into crows when they die. I started explaining my theory because, hey, what are family gatherings for if not a child's random thoughts on death? It got really quiet for a few seconds when I finished. Then, a huge crow flew over us, landed an arm's length away from me and proceeded to stare at me, like crows do, all head tilty and thoughtful-looking. It got even quieter. Cue end of picnic.
13. The veins in my right hand form a tiny anarchy symbol. This pleases me.
12. I wear guy shoes (except for shoes that don't come in male varieties, like heels, natch). But I wear trainers most of the time, so. Guys shoes will almost always be better made. They actually have helpful features; stuff like arch and sole support, quality stitching (not just cheap glue), and durable materials. Guys shoes are made for actual physical activities and use; they have traction and useful little snaps and ties and stuff. Girls shoes are made to look pretty. Except they usually don't even do that. As an added bonus, guys shoes come in colors other than Hello Kitty Pink.
11. It took me 2 weeks to write this list. There's about 20 more things I didn't include coz they're too personal/stupid/weird.
10. I have run out of room on my bookshelves. There's stacks of about 50 hardcover books and 150 paperbacks on my floor that I have no idea what to do with. Help. Please.
09. I've known seven people who have died way before their time. Of them, five were good friends. Of these, four were suicides (All gunshot wounds to the head, interestingly). One was a friend who owed someone $6,000 for cocaine. This weighs on me a lot sometimes. $6,000 is a large amount of money but it's not -that- much. Something could have been done. // The one that stays with me the most, though, was an ex-boyfriend. I saw him earlier that day in the halls at school. We had an odd little bittersweet moment and he smiled. Those few seconds haunt me. During the funeral, a girl I'd hated for years made the most horrible heartbreaking sound. I wouldn't wish that type of pain on anyone, not even her. I still can't believe he'll be 16 forever while everyone who knew him will keep aging. It doesn't seem logical.
08. I hate the feeling of my bare feet on anything smooth - like tile, hardwood floors, concrete, etc..
07. I can make a pizza crust by throwing it around in the air like they do in the cartoons. Just the throwing and spinning technique though. Not the twirling. I still refuse to believe anyone can actually do that.
06. I taught a Baptist Sunday School class of 25 kindergarteners with my former best friend, Scarlet, six hours every Sunday, for two years. I really loved some of those kids (like the "feisty" little girl who was actually closer to downright mean sometimes. She made really good alligators and spiders out of clay and refused to wear a dress for church). Too cool. But alas.
About one and a half years ago, I quit teaching Sunday school when I realized three things:
-- I couldn't face myself for teaching those kids a religion I no longer believed in and had come to resent.
-- A cup of coffee before church is an acceptable way to prepare to face the day. A few lines of white? Not so much. (If you need motivation of that magnitude to do any 'voluntary' activity, something is wrong.)
-- Scarlet and I were in love. Awww. [Ms. Scarlet and Ms. Charlotte. That would have gone over reeeaaally well with the parents, I'm sure.]
05. You know when the dentist is poking around in your mouth and you can feel their latex glove against your teeth and gums? I like that. Probably too much. And I always have to resist the urge to bite down, coz I think that would probably feel good too. For me, at least.
04. My elbows are double-jointed. Hyper-extendable is the correct term, actually. If you're not expecting it, it looks like my elbows are broken or dislocated when my arms are straight. Boo.
03. I've had over 35 jobs since I was 15. That's not counting periods of self-employment, like when I used to sell cigarettes to the other kids in high school. $.75 per cigarette or an even $10.00 for a pack. A pack! And business was booming. People are insane. Aside from that, I've worked in lots o' video rental shops, telemarketing, waitressing, pet sitting, religious instruction, tutoring, doctors' and medical offices, selling cosmetics, and so on...
02. I like the taste of burnt matches.
01. I recently realized that I'd been using LiveJournal to avoid thinking about some things that I really needed to. Posting and commenting and replying and making silly polls and trying to find the perfect icon and layout is so much easier than RL sometimes. It turns out that skeletons in one's closet will eventually find their way out anyway, no matter how hard one pushes against the door. My moment of clarity and salvation happened upon reading the last page of JTHM #7, interestingly enough. You gotta take these things where you can get 'em.
So I'm leaving LJ. Not completely and not forever, but yeah. I'll still slink over to see how you lot are doing from time to time and to make the occasional update.
Friend, defriend, whatever. I'll manage. Lemme know if anything incredibly awesome/shite happens. Take care and stay out of trouble. ♥ - C