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sometimes i wonder what would happen if i just picked up & left. moved to some random state where i have to struggle & not rely on my parents. if i left a note telling them i was fine & not kidnapped, but not tell them where i went till i was sure i was ok.
would i make it? could i handle the sudden transition of one day knowing if i fucked up i could get out of it because of my family, or would i break down & go home with my head hanging down?
would my friends miss me that much, or would they just be sad for a day or two, then forget about me. i wonder how my parents, my family, how they would react.
i wish i could do that. depend on myself, & myself alone. make my own decisions, clean up after my own fuckups.
someday i will.
would i make it? could i handle the sudden transition of one day knowing if i fucked up i could get out of it because of my family, or would i break down & go home with my head hanging down?
would my friends miss me that much, or would they just be sad for a day or two, then forget about me. i wonder how my parents, my family, how they would react.
i wish i could do that. depend on myself, & myself alone. make my own decisions, clean up after my own fuckups.
someday i will.