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apparently on june 1, i will suddenly be responsible enough to make my own decisions.
i have no more to say on that subject.
on june 24th, i will be forever free of the people i grew up with. am i sad? no. do i wish it'd last longer? i'd rather shoot myself. i'll miss a whole 5 people, which is sad really. though i try not to regret, i do wish i'd worked harder in the first three years, so that i could go to a college further away, and start anew. i don't exactly mind living here; i just need space.
i'm extremely lucky for the life i live. i'm grateful, just tired of it. i'd like to see if i could make it on my own, but i'm not allowed. independence? who needs it when you've got rich parents. lately my words have been dripping with sarcasm. i hate you.
i'll try to update more. it's hard, when there's too much to say.
i'm looking for someone special; someone to take my mind off it.
it's strange to be in a relationship for 2 years, then suddenly start dating other people again. very different.
i have the sudden urge to vomit.
all i want is a conversation.