Magic
Is it worth trying to start over? To go back to an old place from your history, resurrect it using some ancient spell, and then try to breath new life into it?
I can't write much anymore. I feel too much. Think too much. It becomes too much to write down, and that becomes a chore to sort through. To understand. To put pen to paper (or fingers to keys). I've tried to do better.
With the loss of TikTok, there's an outlet that's been taken away from so many. I used that outlet to help get through the pandemic. Now that outlet will be taken away - just like so many of the "safe" spaces that I've counted on over the years to help me find the reason to continue breathing in and out even when I didn't want to.
So I'm wondering tonight as I'm sitting here with my anxiety, my depression, and my words - should I cast that spell and hope for a blessing instead of a curse?