Why do I feel so stupid?

Feb 27, 2005 19:42

There's absolutely no reason to feel stupid, but I do. I am so fucking boy-crazy. It's silly in a person my age. I'm 19 years old. I'm single. So very single. And it should be okay. But it's not. It's not as if all of my friends are in relationships. My life is full and rich again. I have a show to work on. My classes are challanging and mostly interesting. I have many friends who are eager to spend time with me. There are dozens of shows coming up that I want to see. But none of it matters right now. All that I can focus on is this out-of-reach actor, who probably sees me as a useful sort of person, one best remaining against the wall, with the prompt book in lab.

I don't know what I expected. Why did I think he's ask me to watch the oscars with him?

Why do I feel stupid that I didn't ask him? I should be congradulating myself on not acting like a total fool.

On the plus side, the show looks great. And I saw three plays this weekend.
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