[IC] Words in the Flames (Furuba spoilers)
Mom,
This is probably one of the hardest things I've done in a long time. I don't know where to start, and I'm almost wondering why I'm even bothering with this. But that kid Tot seemed so earnest, and some of the other campers I saw around... I couldn't stop thinking about it. Who knows? Maybe it'll even help me a bit.
I don't know what to make of you. I really don't. You said you loved me, but you were always scared of me. Or my other form, at least. But even though you kept me hidden away, you always did take good care of me. And while you were still around, Dad couldn't treat me the way he obviously wanted to. I still don't understand, all these years later.
Did I really kill you? Did you commit suicide? Did having the Cat for a child destroy your will to live? Or was it just coincidence, a bug that hit you at the wrong moment? You'll never be able to answer, but knowing that doesn't help. I'll always wish I could ask you. I'll always wish I could talk to you one more time.
I don't know if you ever really loved me. But I think I can say that I loved you. Maybe even Dad too, no matter how much he despises me. Whatever else I might think about you, you are my parents. I never had a choice -- I couldn't have chosen to be born the Cat -- but for what it's worth, I'm sorry I was.
I'm starting to find a place for myself in the world. There's my friends here at camp, my Shishou... and Tohru, too. I couldn't have done it -- I couldn't have been here if not for you. Thank you for giving birth to me, for raising me as long as you did. I won't forget you, or what you did for me. That's probably the only real apology I can make.
Kyou
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Kyoko,
Sheesh. Just like that last letter, I've got no idea where to start. You're probably surprised I bothered to write anything. But you raised my most important person. You deserve far more than I'm capable of giving.
I think I'll always wonder what you'd say if you saw us now. I've come a long way since you found that little orange-haired brat sulking at the old construction site. Even if it was a twisted path that took me there, I finally did meet your daughter after all. And she's every bit as cute and sweet and lovable as you always told me she was.
I told Tohru what happened that day. I never dreamed she'd still want anything to do with me if she found out. But she still does. She still loves me. Piece by piece, I've opened up, shown her all the worst parts of myself. And piece by piece, she's looked at them and accepted them all, even if they hurt her. I wonder, did even you know how completely amazing she is? Surely you must have.
I'm sorry. I couldn't say it then, but I can at least say it here. Tohru insists it wasn't my fault, but... One way or another, I failed you, and for that I'll spend the rest of my life apologizing. You remember that promise we made, right? What am I saying? Of course you remember. Well, it did take me a long time, but I'm finally going to keep that promise. I'll protect Tohru with my life. Be with her, stand by her, as long as I can. Fight anything that tries to hurt her, and anything that tries to separate us.
Hope that's alright with you. But I don't think I'd change my mind if it wasn't. What can I say? I'm a stubborn guy. We've got that in common.
I wanted to apologize, but more than that... I think I want to thank you. For helping give me this slim chance to find real happiness. Maybe we'll meet again some day, after me and Tohru have passed on too. I don't know if you'll ask me what took so damn long or smack me for touching your precious daughter. But either way, I'll look forward to it.
Kyou
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[Outside Boys' 7, a slightly red-eyed Kyou (still girl-type) has cobbled together a small campfire.]
So I'm a couple hours late, but... it did take me all night to write these. I'm not any good at this sort of thing.
[She pauses for a moment, contemplates the two folded sheets of paper in her hand, then tosses them into the flames.]
... Happy Mother's Day.
((Oh, Kyou. T^T Inspired by Tot's Mother's Day post; the idea wouldn't leave my head. Open for RP, if anyone so wishes, although I won't be around until morning.))
This is probably one of the hardest things I've done in a long time. I don't know where to start, and I'm almost wondering why I'm even bothering with this. But that kid Tot seemed so earnest, and some of the other campers I saw around... I couldn't stop thinking about it. Who knows? Maybe it'll even help me a bit.
I don't know what to make of you. I really don't. You said you loved me, but you were always scared of me. Or my other form, at least. But even though you kept me hidden away, you always did take good care of me. And while you were still around, Dad couldn't treat me the way he obviously wanted to. I still don't understand, all these years later.
Did I really kill you? Did you commit suicide? Did having the Cat for a child destroy your will to live? Or was it just coincidence, a bug that hit you at the wrong moment? You'll never be able to answer, but knowing that doesn't help. I'll always wish I could ask you. I'll always wish I could talk to you one more time.
I don't know if you ever really loved me. But I think I can say that I loved you. Maybe even Dad too, no matter how much he despises me. Whatever else I might think about you, you are my parents. I never had a choice -- I couldn't have chosen to be born the Cat -- but for what it's worth, I'm sorry I was.
I'm starting to find a place for myself in the world. There's my friends here at camp, my Shishou... and Tohru, too. I couldn't have done it -- I couldn't have been here if not for you. Thank you for giving birth to me, for raising me as long as you did. I won't forget you, or what you did for me. That's probably the only real apology I can make.
Kyou
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Kyoko,
Sheesh. Just like that last letter, I've got no idea where to start. You're probably surprised I bothered to write anything. But you raised my most important person. You deserve far more than I'm capable of giving.
I think I'll always wonder what you'd say if you saw us now. I've come a long way since you found that little orange-haired brat sulking at the old construction site. Even if it was a twisted path that took me there, I finally did meet your daughter after all. And she's every bit as cute and sweet and lovable as you always told me she was.
I told Tohru what happened that day. I never dreamed she'd still want anything to do with me if she found out. But she still does. She still loves me. Piece by piece, I've opened up, shown her all the worst parts of myself. And piece by piece, she's looked at them and accepted them all, even if they hurt her. I wonder, did even you know how completely amazing she is? Surely you must have.
I'm sorry. I couldn't say it then, but I can at least say it here. Tohru insists it wasn't my fault, but... One way or another, I failed you, and for that I'll spend the rest of my life apologizing. You remember that promise we made, right? What am I saying? Of course you remember. Well, it did take me a long time, but I'm finally going to keep that promise. I'll protect Tohru with my life. Be with her, stand by her, as long as I can. Fight anything that tries to hurt her, and anything that tries to separate us.
Hope that's alright with you. But I don't think I'd change my mind if it wasn't. What can I say? I'm a stubborn guy. We've got that in common.
I wanted to apologize, but more than that... I think I want to thank you. For helping give me this slim chance to find real happiness. Maybe we'll meet again some day, after me and Tohru have passed on too. I don't know if you'll ask me what took so damn long or smack me for touching your precious daughter. But either way, I'll look forward to it.
Kyou
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[Outside Boys' 7, a slightly red-eyed Kyou (still girl-type) has cobbled together a small campfire.]
So I'm a couple hours late, but... it did take me all night to write these. I'm not any good at this sort of thing.
[She pauses for a moment, contemplates the two folded sheets of paper in her hand, then tosses them into the flames.]
... Happy Mother's Day.
((Oh, Kyou. T^T Inspired by Tot's Mother's Day post; the idea wouldn't leave my head. Open for RP, if anyone so wishes, although I won't be around until morning.))