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Whatever, I'm not ashamed, I'm fucking frustrated. Listen to Celine Dion on a fucking Sunday morning while the rest of the house is asleep, and you get NOSTALGIA. Especially when you've been listening to her since BEFORE Titanic. Yeah for me. So Laurel is having fun at College. Me? I'm being a teenage girl. Jeez. Yeah ok... I miss Richard. I find myself driving horribley fast. Like.. 40 in a residential area. Oh dear. Why? Because the damn almost COMMANDS you to drive fast because it's a stick shift?
Oh yeah, I HATE driving automatic. SO boring. And um...My life is boring. I'm striving for it to have meaning, but the more and more I try to find myself, the more I want to be who I was before. I'm working out three times a week now. Swimming.... It's not the most graceful thing ever, but it works. I fast on the weekends. I WILL FIT INTO MY GODDAMN PANTS ONCE MORE. I don't care what you all say, I've gained 20 pounds. That bothers me. I told myself I would never let myself become one of those fast gross OBESE people who complain about being fat but don't acutally DO anythign about it. Funny how these blogs turn into rants HA HAH. (the sarcasm kills me)
I wanted ot go to cosmetology school.. I'd just rather not lose brain cells from all the bleach in that place HAHAHHAHHA. I could be great ( I am all ready a god amoung insects) I could be anythign I want... so what is holding me back?? Money? My parents are rolling in it. They OWE me college tuition. I haven't been at home in um.. 2 years almost. That's ALOT of money I've saved them.
I miss my parents.. and Cassy... and my sister. But I know if I see them.. I will miss them no more. The arguing.. MEH. All I ever wanted was to have my mom hold me close like I was her daughter... and not the kid that comes back every once and a while. My dad called me the other day.. he wanted to know how my ear was ( I didn't even know he knew my phone number) It's still water logged, and swimming ISN'T helping LOL.
see? I feel better all ready.
What was I taking about? Oh yeah... Who knew the Spice Girls were so DIRTY??? listen to "2 become 1" jeez... I listened to that shit in grade school.. LOL.
Couold someone tell me why i miss Caleb if he's asleep in the NEXT room?? LOL. I dunno. It's the Celine Dion I tell you!!! It's the Canadian! Whoot! I love driving stick. I will have no other cars before my Focus. Except my Kiro. I love my Kiro. I love my Kiro like I loved Richard. Fast,Hard, and RED HAHAHAHAH.
Jeez I'm sick. Richard=dust right now.
Oh yeah baby.. hold that nooooooooooooooooooooooooottttttttttttttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Jeez.. I remember screaming that verse at the top of my lungs at my grandmothes house, hoping she couldn't hear it... and she did. LOL At that tiem I didn't realize that a 11 year old should be able to hit a 11 second note... But I did!! and then I didn't talk for a while. I'm a weird kid. Yes I am. I'm rambling... but it feels good, it's like talking to my computer, and no matter what I say, IT WON'T TALK BACK.
I hate massage therapy but I enjoy money. and anythign to alleviate Caleb's stress about money and cause him to have gray hair.. I will do.
I have to go do something. I heart crackers.. we need Tampico... uhh BYE!!
Oh yeah, I HATE driving automatic. SO boring. And um...My life is boring. I'm striving for it to have meaning, but the more and more I try to find myself, the more I want to be who I was before. I'm working out three times a week now. Swimming.... It's not the most graceful thing ever, but it works. I fast on the weekends. I WILL FIT INTO MY GODDAMN PANTS ONCE MORE. I don't care what you all say, I've gained 20 pounds. That bothers me. I told myself I would never let myself become one of those fast gross OBESE people who complain about being fat but don't acutally DO anythign about it. Funny how these blogs turn into rants HA HAH. (the sarcasm kills me)
I wanted ot go to cosmetology school.. I'd just rather not lose brain cells from all the bleach in that place HAHAHHAHHA. I could be great ( I am all ready a god amoung insects) I could be anythign I want... so what is holding me back?? Money? My parents are rolling in it. They OWE me college tuition. I haven't been at home in um.. 2 years almost. That's ALOT of money I've saved them.
I miss my parents.. and Cassy... and my sister. But I know if I see them.. I will miss them no more. The arguing.. MEH. All I ever wanted was to have my mom hold me close like I was her daughter... and not the kid that comes back every once and a while. My dad called me the other day.. he wanted to know how my ear was ( I didn't even know he knew my phone number) It's still water logged, and swimming ISN'T helping LOL.
see? I feel better all ready.
What was I taking about? Oh yeah... Who knew the Spice Girls were so DIRTY??? listen to "2 become 1" jeez... I listened to that shit in grade school.. LOL.
Couold someone tell me why i miss Caleb if he's asleep in the NEXT room?? LOL. I dunno. It's the Celine Dion I tell you!!! It's the Canadian! Whoot! I love driving stick. I will have no other cars before my Focus. Except my Kiro. I love my Kiro. I love my Kiro like I loved Richard. Fast,Hard, and RED HAHAHAHAH.
Jeez I'm sick. Richard=dust right now.
Oh yeah baby.. hold that nooooooooooooooooooooooooottttttttttttttttttttttteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Jeez.. I remember screaming that verse at the top of my lungs at my grandmothes house, hoping she couldn't hear it... and she did. LOL At that tiem I didn't realize that a 11 year old should be able to hit a 11 second note... But I did!! and then I didn't talk for a while. I'm a weird kid. Yes I am. I'm rambling... but it feels good, it's like talking to my computer, and no matter what I say, IT WON'T TALK BACK.
I hate massage therapy but I enjoy money. and anythign to alleviate Caleb's stress about money and cause him to have gray hair.. I will do.
I have to go do something. I heart crackers.. we need Tampico... uhh BYE!!