The hardest thing
I'm going to have to do something extremely difficult.
Push all my love for Caleb inside, and hide it for three months. Pretend like it doesn't hurt, act happy. I intend on getting things done though. Like my G.E.D. and maybe my license (I wish). I'm also going to start going to therapy, and try to make myself a better person. Yes, this is going to be hard as hell... but it'll be worth it when Caleb and I can finally be happy together without all these roadblocks.
My whole thing is the jealousy. When he hangs out with her he gets different. He won't be affectionat.. Where as he was being hopeful, and saying he had faith in this relationship when we were alone, he suddenly tells me he doesn't think it's going to work and that I should just let him go when he's around her!
Whatever. I trust him. I know what he's going to do... and I trust him when he says he's not going to do certain things. He can have this "fling", but he'll never love her...
I guess that makes me feel better.
Kind of.
Oh well.
Love you Caleb!!
Push all my love for Caleb inside, and hide it for three months. Pretend like it doesn't hurt, act happy. I intend on getting things done though. Like my G.E.D. and maybe my license (I wish). I'm also going to start going to therapy, and try to make myself a better person. Yes, this is going to be hard as hell... but it'll be worth it when Caleb and I can finally be happy together without all these roadblocks.
My whole thing is the jealousy. When he hangs out with her he gets different. He won't be affectionat.. Where as he was being hopeful, and saying he had faith in this relationship when we were alone, he suddenly tells me he doesn't think it's going to work and that I should just let him go when he's around her!
Whatever. I trust him. I know what he's going to do... and I trust him when he says he's not going to do certain things. He can have this "fling", but he'll never love her...
I guess that makes me feel better.
Kind of.
Oh well.
Love you Caleb!!