Change...
Lets see since I last wrote Megan broke up with me and said she needs time to "sort through her thoughts", I can understand that. Even though I am trying to be understanding it is still hard to handle, I mean I have been with her off and on for 4 years!!! I guess it gives us both a little time to evaluate what is going on in our lives. It is so confusing though, I love her and she says she loves me she just doesn't know how she loves me. I really hate being on this end of things, I am usually the one who is confused about my feelings and where things are going, I guess there is a first time for everything:( To recap the relationship, Megan is the girl that I have chose over everyone Liz(2 years), Kirsten(6 months),and Tiffany(6 months). Throughout the whole time we have been dating Megan always wanted to be with me and now it is different, it sucks...I really love this girl. Megan has always had something that no one else could ever compare with, I guess this is why I would always choose her. I think about her everyday and how happy I am when I am with her; her eyes, her smile, her laugh, her body, the way she smells, and most of all the way she makes me feel. I guess it is my own fault I mean it took me 4 years to realize how perfect this girl is for me.Well, I guess this is all for the best I don't want to be with somebody who is not sure if they want to be with me.
Oh..Well in other news I was completely F***** over at work, my so called friend(also my Director) let me go, saying it was company cost. I have worked there long and hard for 3 1/2 years always doing more than anyone ever expected. I found out that the CEO of our company was going to let go of my Director and put me in his position and once my Director found out he wrote a email from my computer when I was gone and sent it to all of the BIG WIG's saying that I couldn't wait to be in his position so that I could sabotage the company! Of course no one there listens to reason, so when I explained it went in one ear and out the other. Needless to say I am jobless but no biggie I am doing perfectly fine without the job and I feel less stressed.
Paramedic school will be over in 5 months and I can't wait, I am so tired of test and reading heart rhythms seriously does it really matter if someone has PVC's we can't really do much for it in the field. They have us learn all this shit that we will never use in the field because it doesn't fall under our protocol, so what the hell am I suppose to do with this information, I mean I will have to learn all of this again when I go to Med School...I don't want to learn it now. Alrighty I am done venting about my life, I am going to bed.
Oh..Well in other news I was completely F***** over at work, my so called friend(also my Director) let me go, saying it was company cost. I have worked there long and hard for 3 1/2 years always doing more than anyone ever expected. I found out that the CEO of our company was going to let go of my Director and put me in his position and once my Director found out he wrote a email from my computer when I was gone and sent it to all of the BIG WIG's saying that I couldn't wait to be in his position so that I could sabotage the company! Of course no one there listens to reason, so when I explained it went in one ear and out the other. Needless to say I am jobless but no biggie I am doing perfectly fine without the job and I feel less stressed.
Paramedic school will be over in 5 months and I can't wait, I am so tired of test and reading heart rhythms seriously does it really matter if someone has PVC's we can't really do much for it in the field. They have us learn all this shit that we will never use in the field because it doesn't fall under our protocol, so what the hell am I suppose to do with this information, I mean I will have to learn all of this again when I go to Med School...I don't want to learn it now. Alrighty I am done venting about my life, I am going to bed.