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it was also quite scary the extent to which we were dead after history lecture. i honestly hadn't expected it to be so bad but as time wore on I died more and more. totally destroyed man. math was bad enough, I was so sian and tired I really wouldn't have minded getting kicked out of class (of course I would have thrown a huge tantrum before just because I was really feeling like one, either tantrum or major whinefest), but history right after that was just pure murder. I was falling asleep really badly, aditi next to me was half-asleep as well and martin's eyes were rolling back into his head like nobody's business. it took a heckload of willpower to drag myself to KI and not collapse in the corridor and curl up and sleep. that feeling of tiredness and near-despair after lecture ended was so palpable my god. I wanted to cry and laugh and I think so did martin actually his eyes were starting to tear and aditi's eyes were burning or something.
i know i'm really tired when I'm breathing in heavily. it's like an inverse sigh lol. I'm like oh god I need strength I'm too darn tired breathe breathe suck in air.
thankfully this is over. I'm nearly done with my sea essay too, so the worst is definitely over. really grateful for the geoggers who showed their concern like wally and annliang, made things better knowing there were people who cared.
i wonder if the scholarship results will come out tomorrow.
i know i'm really tired when I'm breathing in heavily. it's like an inverse sigh lol. I'm like oh god I need strength I'm too darn tired breathe breathe suck in air.
thankfully this is over. I'm nearly done with my sea essay too, so the worst is definitely over. really grateful for the geoggers who showed their concern like wally and annliang, made things better knowing there were people who cared.
i wonder if the scholarship results will come out tomorrow.