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oh yeah. i just remembered why i hate christmas.
MY MOTHER.
uggggggggggggggahhahdflkjhlakhjdsflausyreoa387ywaurhljkflkshoyO*&'ol';l;h!!!!!!!!
i am very frustrated with her. and i shouldn't have bought her a gift, it'll just end up with the same fate as my gifts to her the last 15 years - in a closet, never used or worn or read or anything. what a waste of time, stress and money.
these are some words to describe my mother:
1. selfish
2. self-righteous
3. know-it-all
4. victim
5. COMPLETELY OFF HER GODDAMNED ROCKER
6. COMPLETELY LACKING ANY KIND OF PERSPECTIVE
i was already having a stressful day, she had to come into my place of work and a) criticise me b) be difficult about my gift to her c) not allow me to come bake at her house for when i go to the island. fucking crap, BAH HUMBUG!! AND SHE WONDERS WHY I WANTED TO TRY TO GET MORE INTO THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT BY THROWING A FRIENDS CHRISTMAS DINNER!! SHE GOT OFFENDED THAT I DIDN'T FIRST WANT TO THROW A FAMILY PARTY! christmas is not about friends she says, it's about family! well fuck me if christmas to me isn't supposed to be about spending time with loved ones and people who make you feel loved and special and useful and welcome!!
NO WONDER I HATE CHRISTMAS!! i have to interact with my increasingly INSANE MOTHER!!
ps, my computer's fixed, but my soul is in tatters. VOMIT.
edit did i mention that i plan to completely avoid her on christmas eve? that tomorrow she will receive nary a phone call? i just. can't. fucking. deal with it!!
MY MOTHER.
uggggggggggggggahhahdflkjhlakhjdsflausyreoa387ywaurhljkflkshoyO*&'ol';l;h!!!!!!!!
i am very frustrated with her. and i shouldn't have bought her a gift, it'll just end up with the same fate as my gifts to her the last 15 years - in a closet, never used or worn or read or anything. what a waste of time, stress and money.
these are some words to describe my mother:
1. selfish
2. self-righteous
3. know-it-all
4. victim
5. COMPLETELY OFF HER GODDAMNED ROCKER
6. COMPLETELY LACKING ANY KIND OF PERSPECTIVE
i was already having a stressful day, she had to come into my place of work and a) criticise me b) be difficult about my gift to her c) not allow me to come bake at her house for when i go to the island. fucking crap, BAH HUMBUG!! AND SHE WONDERS WHY I WANTED TO TRY TO GET MORE INTO THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT BY THROWING A FRIENDS CHRISTMAS DINNER!! SHE GOT OFFENDED THAT I DIDN'T FIRST WANT TO THROW A FAMILY PARTY! christmas is not about friends she says, it's about family! well fuck me if christmas to me isn't supposed to be about spending time with loved ones and people who make you feel loved and special and useful and welcome!!
NO WONDER I HATE CHRISTMAS!! i have to interact with my increasingly INSANE MOTHER!!
ps, my computer's fixed, but my soul is in tatters. VOMIT.
edit did i mention that i plan to completely avoid her on christmas eve? that tomorrow she will receive nary a phone call? i just. can't. fucking. deal with it!!