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so, yesterday my Mammaw was diagnosed with cancer and today she started Chemotherapy. She's in pain and on lots of drugs. I couldn't help it when I walked into her hospital room-- i cried. The nurse was like, "what are those red eyes for? Nobody's dead." But I couldn't help it. The past few days have been comlete shit. Like 20 depressing things rolled into one. New Orleans, family falling apart, disappointment in friends.
And here I am sitting in a silent room in a dark building in Alabama on New Years Eve when i know my friends in new Orleans are partying it up.
I feel like i have no one to talk to, no one to turn to. I've grown away from my friends and my family is in no position to listen to my woes.
This is the key to life:
A) No expectations
B) No regrets
... Easier said than done
And here I am sitting in a silent room in a dark building in Alabama on New Years Eve when i know my friends in new Orleans are partying it up.
I feel like i have no one to talk to, no one to turn to. I've grown away from my friends and my family is in no position to listen to my woes.
This is the key to life:
A) No expectations
B) No regrets
... Easier said than done