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I just met this awesome dude from Togo!!
his name is Sabi and he is doing some kind of veterinarian work at Cornell. Oh the people you meet (at Heifer Ranch).
OHHHH i'm so excited for my 2 week break. With all of the people leaving the Ranch has come a lot of drama. I found out about a lot of lies and other drama. One girl was sleeping around with these guys and that has caused a lot of tension that has lasted even though she is gone. I hate cheaters. I hate ppl who sleep around. Sluts, I mean. I kinda hate men, too.
i've been really fucking annoying lately. Ugh. Totally NOT me.
What am I going to do for my summer??? So many options!! There's so much I want to do.
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
Let's see-- killed an animal with my own hands, been a waitress, seen people on serious drugs, kissed a guy (haha I KNOW!), gotten and broken up with a boyfriend, gotten accepted to college, eaten goat, shovelled water buffalo manure, been a teacher, gone skinnydipping, moved away from home
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i don't even remember what my resolutions were
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
some Ranch animals! I get to help deliver baby goats and sheep in the springtime!
4. Did anyone close to you die??
yes. My friend Jason O.D.ed earlier this Fall.
5. What countries did you visit?
none-- i'm going to Honduras in the spring.
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
to know myself.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 1-- got accepted to college; August 28th-- my 18th birthday and also the day we evacuated; mid-October- first time I went back to N.O. and saw the destruction
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
overcoming my fear of my body, becoming very comfortable with public speaking
9. What was your biggest failure?
men
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nope; healthy as a horse!
11. What was the best thing you bought?
lots of YARN to make lots of scarfs!! And possibly all the things I got from the Ranch gift shop
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my own for staying focused and not letting anyone put my dreams down.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Betsy and Trevor
14. Where did most of your money go?
nowhere. I didn't spend any. I saved most all of it.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
saving the world, AP English 6th period
16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
perhaps the Craft Brothers on "Zombie", "Bowl of Oranges"
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier.
ii. thinner or fatter? maybe a little thinner
iii. richer or poorer? much much richer in money and soul
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
chillin with friends
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
working
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
in my NEW HOUSE!!! in Little Rock
22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
nope
23. How many one-night stands?
zero
24. What was your favorite TV program?
i don't watch tv
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
well i hate Bush, but i definately hated him before this year
26. What was the best book you read?
Of Love and Other Demons, or To the Lighthouse
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
oh my god basically everything I listen to now, thanx to Aubz, Michael, Zach, and Ranch folk
What did you want and get?
lots of boys
29. What did you want and not get?
a best friend
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
ahh i don't remember
at did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 18 and i was evacuating from Katrina. Happy birthday ME!!
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
getting into Yale
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
"exploring"
34. What kept you sane?
nature, hope, and music
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
ugh
What political issue stirred you the most?
the gov't's response to Katrina
37. Who did you miss?
my family
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Katherine, Jason, DAVE the Wave!
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
No regrets. No expectations. No labels.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year
So that is how I learned the lesson that everyone is alone.
And your eyes must do some raining if you are ever going to grow.
But when crying don't help and you can't compose yourself.
It is best to compose a poem, an honest verse of longing or simple song of hope.
That is why I'm singing...
But if the world could remain within a frame like a painting on a wall.
Then I think we would see the beauty.
Then we would stand staring in awe at our still lives posed like a bowl of oranges,
like a story told by the fault lines and the soil.