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so i guess i'll get back into this b/c i love you guys and miss hearing about you
got AIM (finally... haha) so my sn is arghcadia.....
talk to me!
this week has been really shitty. blah blah blah.
ever since i went back to New Orleans (last week) it's like the awfulness of it has placed a deathly pall over my life. FUCK. fuck new orleans. I can't imagine ever going back there. i dont wanna. it makes me want to kill myself. so hopeless.
my parents are buying a house in Hillcrest and I am so relieved.
and no more boy. nothing really bad happened, its just we decided being together wasn't such a good idea. Really all i want is someone to care about without all the sexual crap that goes along w/ being involved with someone. Sucks, man. I'm not human, or something. I feel like i'm doing good at being friends, though. I still really want to share myself w/ him, but he doesn't seem all that interested anymore. Why can't people just have healthy, caring platonic relationships?
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE-- the Ranch is as amazing as ever. The colors are changing and the two most beautiful trees are right outside my window. I am learning new knitting patterns and trying to finish up on ppl's scarfs that I promised them. I'm writing and making my living space more colorful. I'm finding lots of good new music.