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im done wearing black.
im done walking into rooms filled with people i care about so much and seeing them in so much pain.
i want my heart to stop hurting.
i want answers to wtf is happening.
i want to hug mike and aunt laura and drew and nana and papa and aunt mary and i want them to tell me it's okay.
i want to not have to deal with this.
i wish there was no reason for the tribute concert.
i wish mike and i were taking joanan out for her birthdya tomorrow.
i wish that i could just make sure they know how much i love them.
i need uncle bob to get better.
i cant deal with death anymore. its become far to occuring in my life.
today was so hard.
janine and lauren i love you guys so much and anything you need just let me know<3
i hate that im forgetting things.
i hate i cant remember everything as vividly.
i feel like everyones forgetting.
i could never forget.
i just want to be with them.