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summer. the 2 months of the year that i gain back my confidence. the 2 months i find myself from being destroyed the other 10 months of the year the 2 months i can find myself and the days i get away from smithtown. ((aside from camp)) when the people who are near are normally just family and strangers cause thats the cure to make me happy. the medicine that helps me be who i am.. but this summers different and as strange as it is for me i love it i love going to parties annd feeling like someone with my new friends. and i really love you all and thank you for keeping me sane through everything this year. you're all the best... and with that said i will seal my lips and mail them off to an unmarked adress
today i saw an old friend. a boy i used to be in love with or so i thought. i mean who knew what love was in 5th grade. and when i saw him i smiled and laughed and just stared amazed at how much he changed. at how much we all change so quickly. and its funny almost as its sad. like best friends that grow apart i mean who are you gonna be friends with next year. a reason the split doesnt phase me. sure some people it will be sad but for others its just like theyve moved on and found better friends at a different school. and to be completely honest jess. diana.amanda.brian. aaron and joanna and chris are the only ones that im gonna miss a lot. like a lot a lot a lot a lot. everyone else will just be like a passing friend it will stink but i think we can all get through it. not to bring down the mood but if i think of it that way it makes it easier ya know? sorry if that hurt anyone but its just the way i feel...
so last sunday my brother graduated from highschool. a day we never thought would come with all hes been through the past 3 years. i look up to him a lot which a lot of people find weird but i really dont think anyone will ever understand our relationship sometimes even we dont. but this represents a lot of ends for our relationships no more seein each other in the hallways and just smilin not wanting to be caught dead sayin hi to each other. no more him driving me to school 20 minites late no more fighting for the bathroom at 6am... and strangely enough ill miss it. when he goes to college its gonna be quiet. no more callin me at 1 am to open the front door no more goin outside sunday nights and longboardin around the block or playin lacrosse which i stink at.. no more making me run outside in the middle of a snowstornm to run out to his car and get him his cd.. i guess a lot of you reading this have gone through it before but hey im new at it... lol those 3 weeks my brother wasnt allowed to live with us was hell for me so the whole ill see ya once a month thing isnt gonna be easy in the begginning. but thanks robbie for everything. well yea his party is monday. awesomeee teehee..
good job big bro =)
well lately ive been all mellow and i wrote a lot of songs and me my guitar and ipod have become bestfriends <3333....
party tomorrow at laura's i get to see lauren =) new jersey buddy who i havent seen since last 4th of july yay lol
today i saw an old friend. a boy i used to be in love with or so i thought. i mean who knew what love was in 5th grade. and when i saw him i smiled and laughed and just stared amazed at how much he changed. at how much we all change so quickly. and its funny almost as its sad. like best friends that grow apart i mean who are you gonna be friends with next year. a reason the split doesnt phase me. sure some people it will be sad but for others its just like theyve moved on and found better friends at a different school. and to be completely honest jess. diana.amanda.brian. aaron and joanna and chris are the only ones that im gonna miss a lot. like a lot a lot a lot a lot. everyone else will just be like a passing friend it will stink but i think we can all get through it. not to bring down the mood but if i think of it that way it makes it easier ya know? sorry if that hurt anyone but its just the way i feel...
so last sunday my brother graduated from highschool. a day we never thought would come with all hes been through the past 3 years. i look up to him a lot which a lot of people find weird but i really dont think anyone will ever understand our relationship sometimes even we dont. but this represents a lot of ends for our relationships no more seein each other in the hallways and just smilin not wanting to be caught dead sayin hi to each other. no more him driving me to school 20 minites late no more fighting for the bathroom at 6am... and strangely enough ill miss it. when he goes to college its gonna be quiet. no more callin me at 1 am to open the front door no more goin outside sunday nights and longboardin around the block or playin lacrosse which i stink at.. no more making me run outside in the middle of a snowstornm to run out to his car and get him his cd.. i guess a lot of you reading this have gone through it before but hey im new at it... lol those 3 weeks my brother wasnt allowed to live with us was hell for me so the whole ill see ya once a month thing isnt gonna be easy in the begginning. but thanks robbie for everything. well yea his party is monday. awesomeee teehee..
good job big bro =)
well lately ive been all mellow and i wrote a lot of songs and me my guitar and ipod have become bestfriends <3333....
party tomorrow at laura's i get to see lauren =) new jersey buddy who i havent seen since last 4th of july yay lol