Bleh
Yesterday went from a bad day to a good day after my boyfriend came over and looked after me and was loving.
We played games with one of my housemates and a friend in the evening and it was fun, until the end when I had another couple of flashbacks and started to feel really crappy.
We'd finished by the time I got really bad, so I got my boyfriend to take me home and cried at him for ages.
I feel really useless for crying all the time; I just randomly stop doing things and start crying, and if I'm having a bad day I'm on the verge of tears all the time.
I'm starting to hate myself for being so crap. I can't help feeling that I don't have any right to cry about it now: It was 6 years ago, I should have done something about it then, not be useless now and a burden.
I don't know if this is normal, but I really hate myself when I start crying now, especially cos I cry at my boyfriend so much and need him so much, I just feel like I'm being so crap.
We played games with one of my housemates and a friend in the evening and it was fun, until the end when I had another couple of flashbacks and started to feel really crappy.
We'd finished by the time I got really bad, so I got my boyfriend to take me home and cried at him for ages.
I feel really useless for crying all the time; I just randomly stop doing things and start crying, and if I'm having a bad day I'm on the verge of tears all the time.
I'm starting to hate myself for being so crap. I can't help feeling that I don't have any right to cry about it now: It was 6 years ago, I should have done something about it then, not be useless now and a burden.
I don't know if this is normal, but I really hate myself when I start crying now, especially cos I cry at my boyfriend so much and need him so much, I just feel like I'm being so crap.