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i was in an abusive relationship, but that's history now. i'm letting it go.
it was pouring the day i left him, he helped bring my things outside to my car. he smashed my chairs and threw them in a puddle, and yelled and screamed making on lookers believe that i had wronged him.
i'll never forget the drive home, my things stuffed in the back of my civic. the rain pouring down on my windshield making it almost impossible to see. as i got on the highway, the rain started to lessen, and as i traveled on it slowed to a drizzle, then to nothing.
when i looked back all i could see were rain clouds, ahead was a beautiful sunset, not a cloud in the sky. it was as though nature was giving me a metephor for my life.
i was leaving behind all the misery and all the pain, and starting a new. ahead i would have so many opportunities, i could do whatever i wanted. i would be happy for once.
god spoke to me that day through nature. i'll never forget it as long as i live. whenever i thought of going back to him, i'd remember that rain cloud, and the beautiful sunset ahead of me. why go back when there's so much more ahead of me.
I forgive my ex for the things he's done. and i forgive myself for staying with him for that long and for not loving myself. i'm taking this weight off my shoulders, it's been there for too long. i'm letting it all go now.
Links:
Warning Signs
Waning Signs #2
A Healthy Relationship
An Abusive Relationship
More Info
About Rage and Anger
Effects of Abuse
if you are in an abusive relationship or know someone who is, please get help.
it was pouring the day i left him, he helped bring my things outside to my car. he smashed my chairs and threw them in a puddle, and yelled and screamed making on lookers believe that i had wronged him.
i'll never forget the drive home, my things stuffed in the back of my civic. the rain pouring down on my windshield making it almost impossible to see. as i got on the highway, the rain started to lessen, and as i traveled on it slowed to a drizzle, then to nothing.
when i looked back all i could see were rain clouds, ahead was a beautiful sunset, not a cloud in the sky. it was as though nature was giving me a metephor for my life.
i was leaving behind all the misery and all the pain, and starting a new. ahead i would have so many opportunities, i could do whatever i wanted. i would be happy for once.
god spoke to me that day through nature. i'll never forget it as long as i live. whenever i thought of going back to him, i'd remember that rain cloud, and the beautiful sunset ahead of me. why go back when there's so much more ahead of me.
I forgive my ex for the things he's done. and i forgive myself for staying with him for that long and for not loving myself. i'm taking this weight off my shoulders, it's been there for too long. i'm letting it all go now.
Links:
Warning Signs
Waning Signs #2
A Healthy Relationship
An Abusive Relationship
More Info
About Rage and Anger
Effects of Abuse
if you are in an abusive relationship or know someone who is, please get help.