Not going to be quiet anymore
Hello,
I am in my 30s. All the compartmentalization and all the rationalization that I have built over the years have finally failed. I have to directly recognize that I am the victim of sexual and serious emotional abuse.
I created this livejournal account as a safe way for me to start documenting the healing and building. I need to write, and I am sure there are others who need to know that they aren't alone.
I don't remember the last time I was "normal," so I don't know what is in store. I know I can't keep living like this though.
I do have one question for the group: No doubt more than one of you pondered the question of, how can I keep my seeking help out of the rest of my life? For starters, it can be used against you in court, and certain jobs (especially those with a security clearance) would look dimly on it. Gun owners, police officers, even pilots have reason to be concerned. Even if you know you would never hurt anyone. It just seems unfair that you get victimized once only to be faced with the choice of either silently suffering or telling the world about it and having things taken away from you.
So does anyone have any tips for how to get help safely and anonymously?
I am in my 30s. All the compartmentalization and all the rationalization that I have built over the years have finally failed. I have to directly recognize that I am the victim of sexual and serious emotional abuse.
I created this livejournal account as a safe way for me to start documenting the healing and building. I need to write, and I am sure there are others who need to know that they aren't alone.
I don't remember the last time I was "normal," so I don't know what is in store. I know I can't keep living like this though.
I do have one question for the group: No doubt more than one of you pondered the question of, how can I keep my seeking help out of the rest of my life? For starters, it can be used against you in court, and certain jobs (especially those with a security clearance) would look dimly on it. Gun owners, police officers, even pilots have reason to be concerned. Even if you know you would never hurt anyone. It just seems unfair that you get victimized once only to be faced with the choice of either silently suffering or telling the world about it and having things taken away from you.
So does anyone have any tips for how to get help safely and anonymously?