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I don't understand myself a lot..
it's compltely ridiculous.
I have this amazing person in my life.
& the only thing tha I can think about is going & getting drunk & having fun like last year.
I'm not happy while he's here.
& I hate it.
Because if anything, I fucking owe him everything.
but i hate this.
I hate this being tied down shit.
I'm too young.
Too wild.
I want to do what i want when i want how i want.
I don't know what to do.
I'm taking him home next weekend.
But I think I want to leave him there.
That is going to break his mother fucking heart.
But why don't I care ?
It's pitiful.
How much I have no emotion.
How i've numbed myself for the sake of myself yet I'm still unhappy.
I can't remember if I was happier single or not ?
It's been 6 months.
6 MONTHS. THAT'S SO LONG WTF.
I want to be happier.
plz help me someone.
I hate my life.
it's compltely ridiculous.
I have this amazing person in my life.
& the only thing tha I can think about is going & getting drunk & having fun like last year.
I'm not happy while he's here.
& I hate it.
Because if anything, I fucking owe him everything.
but i hate this.
I hate this being tied down shit.
I'm too young.
Too wild.
I want to do what i want when i want how i want.
I don't know what to do.
I'm taking him home next weekend.
But I think I want to leave him there.
That is going to break his mother fucking heart.
But why don't I care ?
It's pitiful.
How much I have no emotion.
How i've numbed myself for the sake of myself yet I'm still unhappy.
I can't remember if I was happier single or not ?
It's been 6 months.
6 MONTHS. THAT'S SO LONG WTF.
I want to be happier.
plz help me someone.
I hate my life.