i really can't take all this stress anymore
i just love walking up to my mom and sister fighting. its really cool. i am so sick and tired of my sister being bitchy for no reason. just cuz i have a social life, a job, and friends she seems to hate me for that. maybe she should try to get a fucking job, maybe she should get off her lazy ass and go out and try to make some more friends, or rekindle friendships that she's lost. maybe, just maybe, she should actually be serious about going back to school and doing something with her life, and not depend on me or mom or anyone else to hold her little hand thru life. wow she's such a bitch. even right now as i type this she's bickering with my mom. this fucking rocks. i moved away from this house so i could escape it all. and then turns out that i wasn't better off on my own, shit got super bad and i had to move back home, and leave someone that i cared about so very much... and for what? to come back to home to this bullshit. this fucking rocks. it's amazing. ha!
i wake up each morning not wanting to get out of bed cuz i just know that my day will be the same as every other day. consisting of yelling, fighting, work, work, and more fucking work. every day for a long ass time. i wish that i could wake up and be someone different... but tha's not going to happen. i wish sometimes that i was dead... but suicide is not the answer and never will be.
i guess tho, that i'm already dead on the inside. i don't feel anything any more. it sure does suck. i just want to have fun and be around people who love me. i'd like for nate to stay here in avon forever and we can hangout all the time just like the good old days. i wish i could move into colins house and chill with my brother all the time.
blah blah blah blah bitch bitch bitch. i'm sorry livejournal for hardly having a positive post, but this is why you're here. ha.
i'll tell you this tho, i'm really thinking about calling someone up this winter break. someone whom i haven't talked to in a while. i think i want to take them out to lunch and catch up. i think that this person will be able to talk to me and understand me the best. here's to hoping. cheers.
i wake up each morning not wanting to get out of bed cuz i just know that my day will be the same as every other day. consisting of yelling, fighting, work, work, and more fucking work. every day for a long ass time. i wish that i could wake up and be someone different... but tha's not going to happen. i wish sometimes that i was dead... but suicide is not the answer and never will be.
i guess tho, that i'm already dead on the inside. i don't feel anything any more. it sure does suck. i just want to have fun and be around people who love me. i'd like for nate to stay here in avon forever and we can hangout all the time just like the good old days. i wish i could move into colins house and chill with my brother all the time.
blah blah blah blah bitch bitch bitch. i'm sorry livejournal for hardly having a positive post, but this is why you're here. ha.
i'll tell you this tho, i'm really thinking about calling someone up this winter break. someone whom i haven't talked to in a while. i think i want to take them out to lunch and catch up. i think that this person will be able to talk to me and understand me the best. here's to hoping. cheers.