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i love how people take things...and completely turn them around in order to pity themselves and sulk in what they did....in a hopeless attempt to make the person they hurt feel bad about it. needless to say...i cant help but wonder what it is that i have done wrong at this point to you guys.
i listen to you talk about your guy problems w/o even letting onto mine because i know that if i even started a sentance...something shiny..or someone else more worthy of your ears would make their appearance at the same time. sure, when this happens...i say to myself...well, i guess if i were listening to them...and this guy came and started talking to me...i would do the same...but in all actuality..i wouldnt. especially when confronted about it...idk...am i just a hypocrit?
i swear...people just expect me to stop hanging out with them...they are waiting for the day i do something snobby to them so they can turn on me and get angry...im already getting accused for crimes i have yet to commit. so idk what it is...should i just go ahead and live up to such prophets? since it's hopeless to try and prove them wrong?
im tired of you being tired all of the time...im tired of you not listening...im tired of confronting you and telling you something is wrong and you not being interested in what it is or what you can do to help...im tired of listening to you and helping you out and you not doing the same in return...im tired of him being over me...im tired of you thinking its okay to ignore me during school but want to hang out with me when you are bored out of your mind...im tired of hearing how bad he treats you and then you run back to him...im tired of not being included...im tired of acts of immaturity...that make me want to cry...
im tired....
...this isnt a drama act...im not going to get into one of those...im expressing my opinion...these people may not even know who they are...but i just want them to know. i still love you all...im just in a place of confusion and apparent exhaustion.
i listen to you talk about your guy problems w/o even letting onto mine because i know that if i even started a sentance...something shiny..or someone else more worthy of your ears would make their appearance at the same time. sure, when this happens...i say to myself...well, i guess if i were listening to them...and this guy came and started talking to me...i would do the same...but in all actuality..i wouldnt. especially when confronted about it...idk...am i just a hypocrit?
i swear...people just expect me to stop hanging out with them...they are waiting for the day i do something snobby to them so they can turn on me and get angry...im already getting accused for crimes i have yet to commit. so idk what it is...should i just go ahead and live up to such prophets? since it's hopeless to try and prove them wrong?
im tired of you being tired all of the time...im tired of you not listening...im tired of confronting you and telling you something is wrong and you not being interested in what it is or what you can do to help...im tired of listening to you and helping you out and you not doing the same in return...im tired of him being over me...im tired of you thinking its okay to ignore me during school but want to hang out with me when you are bored out of your mind...im tired of hearing how bad he treats you and then you run back to him...im tired of not being included...im tired of acts of immaturity...that make me want to cry...
im tired....
...this isnt a drama act...im not going to get into one of those...im expressing my opinion...these people may not even know who they are...but i just want them to know. i still love you all...im just in a place of confusion and apparent exhaustion.