yeah...so what else is new?
Another Day...Another Entry.
i dont know. i dont feel like pouring my soul out tonight. but thats what i need the most. to just..vent it all out. but i cant. i dont want pity. i dont want sympathy. i dont want to be that burden on someone else's mind. i know that i am loved. i know that i shouldnt worry. i know that im just being a teenager and i know that God is there to take care of me.
my heart isnt big enough for this.
i cant contain my own heartache. im reaching for something that i cant grasp. and its bringing me down.
my college friends are off to college...and i miss them immensely...they always make me smile.
i feel like a waste of time to the friends my own age. i know its not true. idk what's wrong with me. i just feel like its to much out of the way to include me. im such a baby i know. and i dont know whats happening. i've been thrown a lot of bad news lately. hit with some pretty below the belt ones there. and im not taking it to well. so, it could very well just be me and not them.
ahg. im done complaining.
good music always makes me smile. good music a.k.a as my 50's tape...footloose...dirty dancing...stand by me soundtracks. =D
ill be at the church basically all day tomorrow. practicing for interps. i swear. the whole concept of a youth group is starting to take its toll on me. i mean. if our leader cant decently perform his role. what can you do? ahg. it irks me. i wont even bother getting into it.
i've wasted enough of your time. im ready for fall. --->the end.
i dont know. i dont feel like pouring my soul out tonight. but thats what i need the most. to just..vent it all out. but i cant. i dont want pity. i dont want sympathy. i dont want to be that burden on someone else's mind. i know that i am loved. i know that i shouldnt worry. i know that im just being a teenager and i know that God is there to take care of me.
my heart isnt big enough for this.
i cant contain my own heartache. im reaching for something that i cant grasp. and its bringing me down.
my college friends are off to college...and i miss them immensely...they always make me smile.
i feel like a waste of time to the friends my own age. i know its not true. idk what's wrong with me. i just feel like its to much out of the way to include me. im such a baby i know. and i dont know whats happening. i've been thrown a lot of bad news lately. hit with some pretty below the belt ones there. and im not taking it to well. so, it could very well just be me and not them.
ahg. im done complaining.
good music always makes me smile. good music a.k.a as my 50's tape...footloose...dirty dancing...stand by me soundtracks. =D
ill be at the church basically all day tomorrow. practicing for interps. i swear. the whole concept of a youth group is starting to take its toll on me. i mean. if our leader cant decently perform his role. what can you do? ahg. it irks me. i wont even bother getting into it.
i've wasted enough of your time. im ready for fall. --->the end.