last stop... somewhere else.
so... tonight may very well be the last night i will be sleeping in LA. tomorrow i do last minute packing and head for san diego to see my sisters, whom i haven't seen in over a year, and then i come back to LA to catch my long overdue plane out of this shit hole.
LA is the worst thing that ever happened to me. nothing but badness till the very end (all previous happiness has been declared null and void since they were based on deceit). still want to hear something... but i won't, and ultimately i wouldn't be able to believe it anyway.
so goodbye LA. goodbye shallow hearts, and lying mouths. goodbye to everything for a while. no social nothing for at least six months for this little puppy. gotta get my shit together, cause the fear of breathing has reached an all time high, and i can't let anything end until i made some kind of mark.
i am such a megalomaniac.
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and for the record:
of all my character defects, jealousy is the one i am most ashamed of.
LA is the worst thing that ever happened to me. nothing but badness till the very end (all previous happiness has been declared null and void since they were based on deceit). still want to hear something... but i won't, and ultimately i wouldn't be able to believe it anyway.
so goodbye LA. goodbye shallow hearts, and lying mouths. goodbye to everything for a while. no social nothing for at least six months for this little puppy. gotta get my shit together, cause the fear of breathing has reached an all time high, and i can't let anything end until i made some kind of mark.
i am such a megalomaniac.
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and for the record:
of all my character defects, jealousy is the one i am most ashamed of.