Our First -Part 2-
Title: Our First
Pairing: Akame
Genre: RPS, romance, fluff, friendship
Rating: PG-13
Words: 5.127
Disclaimer: I own all of my imagination of these pretty boys. But these pretty boys are under Johnny’s Entertainment.
Summary: Kazuya is a virgin even if he is a big idol. Jin offered himself to be Kazuya’s first.
Author’s Note: My first attempt on writing English fic. Sorry, my English is suck. And I can’t write smut, although in my head always full of Akame’s hot sessions. Un-beta-ed.
Part 1
Then, Kazuya didn’t contact Jin at all. I had been a week. Jin did the same. He just didn’t know what to say. He couldn’t say “Sorry about that night. Just forget it. Let’s be friend forever ne.”, because he’ll never forget it. Because what he felt about the younger man is real and pure. He was just too late to realize his true feeling.
Ne Kazuya. I’m sorry, I’m falling for you.
Two days later, KAT-TUN has practice after each member finished their own business. Jin came to the studio an hour earlier than the schedule. He just bored and stressed at home without anything to do while other members seemed busy, especially Kazuya and Koki with their new drama. Jin were being a pig at home or being pigs together with Pi. Sometimes they go shopping or partying but nothing could ease Jin’s feeling. Jin didn’t have courage to talk about it with Kazuya. And he definitely won’t tell Pi about this, even when Pi realized and bothered him about his sudden miserable form.
When Jin entered the dressing room, he met nobody so he left the room to the bathroom. He opened the bathroom’s door and saw another person reflection on the mirror. Kazuya.
Jin stiffened a bit, but managed to keep his face as straight as he could. Kazuya, who was washing his hands, turned around when he realized someone coming. He saw Jin from the mirror and looked a bit startled but turned around again to look at his hands. Jin stood behind Kazuya and leaned at the bathroom wall.
“How are you, Kazuya?”
Kazuya turned off the tab but still didn’t turn toward Jin.
“I’m fine”
Then silence. At last Kazuya turned his back and faced Jin.
“I’m sorry”
Jin looked at Kazuya intensely.
“For what?”
“For put you on that kind of condition. I shouldn’t let myself used you to relieve my stress.”
“It’s my fault too. After all, I was the more conscious one, but I still didn’t restrain myself.”
They looked at their feet and moved groggily.
“But Kazuya”, Jin started.
Kazuya looked at Jin again.
“I’ll never regret it.”
Jin stopped and continued again,” Because I know that I want you. I don’t want to be just your first, but also your second, third, and so on. And it wasn’t just lust or desire. I couldn’t think about anybody else beside me than you alone. I also couldn’t stand the thought of you being with somebody else but me. I am just too late to realize that my feeling is more than a mere crush.”
Kazuya just stood still with a bit startle look drew in his face.
“Jin. I, I don’t know what to say.”
“Don’t say anything. I just want you to know. Sorry if I’m egoist. I made you felt bad and unsecured. But, I couldn’t keep this feeling anymore. I’ll wait for your answer. After all I’ve been waiting for you for years already.”
With that Jin left Kazuya on the bathroom without even used the bathroom. Jin went to the roof top while waiting the practice to start. He didn’t want to be alone with Kazuya.
I’ve done my best. I’ll just wait for him. My feeling is pure and nothing to be shame about it.
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“Kamenashi! Please concentrate!” Manager shouted at Kazuya for the fourth times since the practice had started 15 minutes ago. Kazuya rarely makes mistakes. He always the most serious and concentrate one. Jin is the one that often makes mistakes.
Kazuya couldn’t concentrate at all. He kept thinking about Jin’s words back there at the bathroom. And he felt the latter kept gazing at him.
Shit Jin. You made me confuse.
“I’m sorry, Manager-san.” Kazuya bowed. “Please give me a break”
With that Kazuya ran toward the door and went out without his manager’s permission.
Manager-san just sighed. “What happen with that fellow? Okay, guys. Let’s break until he is back.”
Jin kept silent and walked toward the coach. He didn’t know what to do. He just knew that Kazuya’s behaviour before was his fault.
Koki and Nakamaru took their water bottles. Taguchi retrieved his PSP from his bag. Suddenly Tat-chan said, “I’ll check him.” And he left the room.
Meanwhile, Kazuya walked absentmindly in the corridor. Then, he heard Tat-chan’s voice.
“Kazuya, wait!”
Kazuya turned back and looked at Tat-chan but didn’t say a word.
“Let’s buy a drink, okay?”
Kazuya just nodded. And they walked toward the drink machine at the end of the corridor. They bought each of them a can of coffee milk. They drank in silence until Tat-chan started.
“Do you mind to tell me something?”
“I’m just tired”
“That’s so typical of you. You always keep everything by yourself. But it’s alright, we’ve been together like forever and I understand you more than you know.”
“Thanks Tat-chan for your understanding.”
“No problem. We are Tacchi brother afterall.” Tatsuya smiled.
Kazuya smiled gratefully.
“I guess so.”
“Just remember. Whatever happened in your life, believe in yourself. Don’t think too much with your brain. Follow your heart and it will be okay.”
“Nice words”
“It’s Bakanishi’s motto. After all, he doesn’t have brain, does he?”
They laughed together.
“Thanks. I felt better.”
“Then, let’s get back to practice. Before our manager decide to retire again.”
Then, they walked back practice with lighter heart.
When they got back, other members gathered around Kazuya. Kazuya reassured them that he was okay. And the practice went well till the end.
Three days later, Kazuya’s cellphone rang. When he looked at the caller it was Pi.
“Moshi moshi”
“Kameeeee”, Pi said with childish voice.
“Hey, Pi. It’s been long time.”
“Yeah. Kame, I miss you”
“Me, too. So why you call me after all?”
“I want to invite you on my party two days later at the usual place.”
“But, I’m…”
Before Kazuya could refuse Pi, Pi whined.
“Pleaseeeeee, Kame. I want to see you. You know that I love you.”
Kazuya just smiled to hear Pi whining voice. It was amusing to know this side of the NEWS leader.
“Okay, Pi. I know I never win to you.”
“Yay. I love you so much.”
Kazuya thought, when Pi told cheesy things such “I miss you” or “I love you”, is that love? Is that the same thing as what Jin felt about Kazuya?
“Ne, Pi. Do you really love me?”
“Huh? Why you asked that? If you asked me about what I feel about you, then I love you as my friend.”
“Ohh. Is it different with love for your lover?”
“Of course, Baka. You’re so dense or what. It is like, if my friend be with somebody else, I don’t care too much as long as that person is happy. But if my lover be with somebody else, it will hurt me so much because I just want that person to be happy with me only.”
Kazuya didn’t say anything.
So Jin felt about me the same as what lovers felt?
“Why you asked that suddenly? Are you and Jin having the same problem? Because you two asked me that mushy things too. It surprised me because he didn’t talk about love before, he didn’t believe it at all. And he has been miserable and abnormally silent for weeks. When I asked the matter, he just shrugged and didn’t tell me anything. He didn’t go on date too. At party he just drank and didn’t flirt or dance.”
Kazuya smiled a bit and shook his head.
Was it because of me? Why I felt happy when he is so miserable? Do I love to think that he is thinking about me that much?
Pi continued, ”Ne, Kazuya. Don’t forget to come, okay?”
“Okay, Pi”
“I hope you two can solve your problem. You won’t tell me either huh?”
“I’m sorry, Pi. I still think about it. But thanks for your support”
“You’re welcome”
With that the line went die. And Kazuya got back to think about it further.
Maybe I can approach Jin at the party. I must say something to Jin. We can’t keep this for so long.
Kazuya entered the party hall. He saw peoples from the company gathered here. Tat-chan, Taguchi, Nishikido-kun, and Subaru were sitting on the bar counter. Nakamaru and Massu were trying all the dishes at the corner. Jin, Koki, and the rest of the gangs were surrounded by guests and girls.
Jin seemed enjoying this party. He looked enjoying the girls’ attention. Maybe I trust his words too much. But why I feel hurt to see him with others?
Kazuya shook his head and tried to search for Pi and he found him talked with Matsumoto-senpai. Pi realized Kazuya’s gaze and turned toward him after permitted himself to Matsumoto-senpai.
“Kame. You came”
“Yeah. Afterall, all of my friends are here too.”
Then they searched for seat and found it across the bar counter. They took the sampagne from the waiter and drank in silence.
Pi talked first. “Ne, Kazuya. I think you must talk to Jin.”
“Huh? What made you think there was something between me and Jin?’
“My friendship radar. Because Jin always had sullen face and refused to say anything when I talked about you.”
Pi really sensitive ne. But I thought the same too. I couldn’t run anymore.
“I think you’re right Pi. I know we should talk about our problem face to face. But still, I feel nervous.”
“Just say what your heart telling you. Then it will be okay. The two of you had been friend for almost a decade. There was nothing to be nervous of.”
“Thanks, Pi”
Pi just nodded and left Kazuya. Kazuya looked down and drank his sampagne while thinking about what to say. When he looked up again, there was Jin blocked his sight.
Kazuya startled and mumbled, “Jin”
“So you came to?”
Kazuya just nodded.
“You’re ready to talk to me?”
Kazuya nodded again.
“Then let’s go to a better place to talk. Let’s permit ourselves to Pi”
Then those two approached Pi and permitted themselves. Pi just nodded and before they turned their backs, Pi gave his thumb up and blessed “Good luck” to them. Kazuya and Jin nodded back and smiled.
They ended in a small park not so far from the party place. Jin sat down first at one of the swing. Then Kazuya took another swing beside Jin. They kept silent while started to swing.
“Kazuya, say something please.”
Kazuya still not said a word.
Jin stopped his swing and just sat immobile. Kazuya followed to stop his swing and just sat down.
Kazuya gathered his courage and called, “Jin”
Jin looked at Kazuya with a soft smile. He waited for another word from Kazuya.
“Jin, I really want to talk about us but I don’t know how to say it”
“Just say whatever you are feeling now. Don’t think too much”
“Then, can you give me time to think further? I’m afraid I will say something wrong and worsen the situation”
Jin face turned serious. “No, Kazuya. Please say it now. Although I said before that I’ll wait for you, I don’t think I can wait any longer.. The thought of you being with somebody else made me crazy and unsecured. I don’t know what will happen if that thought come true. Maybe I will hurt that person and make you cry too. So please, give your answer now.”
Kazuya looked at Jin. Then he looked down at his feet. He recalled his conversation with Tat-chan and Pi. He must believe his heart and that his bond with Jin can’t break that easily.
“Jin” Kazuya called again.
Jin looked at Kazuya. But because Kazuya didn’t say anything more, Jin stood up and walked toward Kazuya. Then he squatted down in front of Kazuya until they were face to face. He smiled assuredly to Kazuya.
Kazuya looked Jin at the eyes. Then he said with a soft voice.
“Kiss me”
Shocked drew on Jin’s face and his heart bounced uncontrollably. He heard that clearly. He managed to calm down a bit and smiled whole-hearted to Kazuya.
Kazuya nervously closed his eyes. Jin leaned forward and closed his eyes to kiss Kazuya. The kiss was sweet and innocent. It’s just lips on lips. Jin controlled the whole kiss softly and carefully. Kazuya smiled to the kiss. He felt the love, emotion, and safety in the kiss. There was no lust. The kiss was like their feelings, pure but still unsecured.
After a while Jin stopped the kiss and looked at Kazuya. Kazuya opened his eyes shyly.
They looked at each other eyes until Kazuya said,” Do you love me?”
“Huh? Why asked? Wasn’t it obvious from what I said and did before?”
“Do you love me as a lover and not just a friend?”
“Of course. You’re so dense, Kazuya. But that side of you is really cute despite of your usual intellect personality.” Jin smiled lovingly to Kazuya.
“Are you serious?”
“Oh my, how many times more do you need until you believe me that I never be this serious in my entire life?”
Kazuya smiled from Jin’s words.
“Sorry, I haven’t felt like this before. I felt insecure about my feeling. I am scared that I’m being fooled by you and by my own feeling. But, now I believe you and I believe in my feeling, at least I believe love never lies.”
“It’s okay. It wasn’t your fault if you felt hard to believe me. After all, I’m a player before. But since I realize my feeling to you and followed my heart, I don’t think there will be anybody else occupied my heart. It’s just you.”
“Jin, I’m still afraid of what will happen ahead. But as long as you are here with me, I think we can work it out. I believe in our love and bond.”
“Thanks Kazuya for believing in me. I’ll never fail you. I’ll do anything to be with you and make you happy.”
“I believe you, Jin”
“So, what’s your final answer?”
“Huh? Isn’t that obvious? Or you that dense?” Kazuya attacked back from what Jin said before.
“Hey, I just want the exact answer.” Jin retorted back.
“You haven’t said it too”
“What? When you asked me “Do you love me?” I’ve said yes, haven’t I?
Kazuya pouted and stomped his feet. “But you haven’t said it clearly. What so difficult about it? Even Pi always says he loves me in every possible time.”
“What?? Pi?? Damn that pig.”
“Say it Jin. Why a playboy like you can’t say that? Is that true what Pi said that you didn’t believe in love before?
Jin whined. “Kazuya, don’t talk about that pig please. I’ll say it to you more than Pi could.”
“Then say it” Kazuya smiled and waited.
Jin moved nervously. Then he reached for Kazuya’s bangs and smothered it. He took a deep breath then said it clearly with warm eyes.
“I love you, Kazuya”
Kazuya beamed happily.
“Me too”
“Hey, that’s not fair. Say the exact thing like what I said before”
“Okay. I love you, Kazuya”
“Kazuyaaaa. Don’t play fool on me.” Jin whined.
Kazuya giggled at this. He stopped his giggle and smiled sweetly to Jin. Jin stopped his whine and waited for Kazuya’s words.
“I love you too, Baka”
“Hey, leave that Baka part”
Then they walked back hand by hand to the party place with satisfy smiles in their faces. They definitely said their gratefulness and apologized to their friends who have been troubled by them.
Jin isn’t just my first in sexual term but also my first true love. He is my happiness now and forever.
Kazuya was my first true love and I will make him happy for the rest of his life.
-OWARI-
Yay, my first finished fic. I hope you could understand my English. I made it in 3 days. Huh, tired. But, I really happy I could write about my favourite pairing in my entire life.
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