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this year couldn't have been more fucked up
michigan state literally ruined everything that made me happy
before i came here i had amazing freinds, the best boyfriend in the world, a plan, ambitions, self confidence, everything
but all that is gone
i'm so fucking angry and lonley and pissed off
i just miss my lover, he was the only thing that was ok
if i ever had a night like this, i knew he was just a phone call away
i never feel like i'm home anymore
my home was in his arms
at collage i'm depressed cause i'm not at home
at home i'm depressed because i'm not with him
i miss my dog..
i miss my fucking kitty so much....
i miss being marks kitty
god fucking damn it
every night i go to bed upset
every day i feel like i'm gonna fucking colaps ore puke or through something or scream because i dont feel fucking normal anymore
this is all so unfair
why the fuck did he have to do it 1 fucking month before i leave
after a whole fucking year being anti social, of being the perfect fucking little girlfriend
of hating this stupid fucking place
he fucking breaks up with me in fucking march
and hes not even fucking gone yet
our lives aren't going in different directions, hes still in highland and will be untill atleast the end of the summer
so why the fuck do i have to sit at home misserable all fucking summer while he's right there...
god damn it
i just want him in my life again
this is too fucking hard
i fucking give up
on everyone
and everything
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i just wanna get so fucking fucked up that i cant think anymore
every night i fucking beg and beg for somthing to give me guidence on what i should do
nothing. i just want a call
a fucking call so i know he is still thinking about me
i want to kiss him again so bad
i dont even feel like he exists
like 2 years was just a figment of my imagination
and i'm so fucking pissed that i know he doesnt feel this shity
no one ever feels this shity bc i'm never break up with anyone
GOD DAMN IT
michigan state literally ruined everything that made me happy
before i came here i had amazing freinds, the best boyfriend in the world, a plan, ambitions, self confidence, everything
but all that is gone
i'm so fucking angry and lonley and pissed off
i just miss my lover, he was the only thing that was ok
if i ever had a night like this, i knew he was just a phone call away
i never feel like i'm home anymore
my home was in his arms
at collage i'm depressed cause i'm not at home
at home i'm depressed because i'm not with him
i miss my dog..
i miss my fucking kitty so much....
i miss being marks kitty
god fucking damn it
every night i go to bed upset
every day i feel like i'm gonna fucking colaps ore puke or through something or scream because i dont feel fucking normal anymore
this is all so unfair
why the fuck did he have to do it 1 fucking month before i leave
after a whole fucking year being anti social, of being the perfect fucking little girlfriend
of hating this stupid fucking place
he fucking breaks up with me in fucking march
and hes not even fucking gone yet
our lives aren't going in different directions, hes still in highland and will be untill atleast the end of the summer
so why the fuck do i have to sit at home misserable all fucking summer while he's right there...
god damn it
i just want him in my life again
this is too fucking hard
i fucking give up
on everyone
and everything
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i just wanna get so fucking fucked up that i cant think anymore
every night i fucking beg and beg for somthing to give me guidence on what i should do
nothing. i just want a call
a fucking call so i know he is still thinking about me
i want to kiss him again so bad
i dont even feel like he exists
like 2 years was just a figment of my imagination
and i'm so fucking pissed that i know he doesnt feel this shity
no one ever feels this shity bc i'm never break up with anyone
GOD DAMN IT