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No-one's online and it makes me depressed. I went through most of my writing tonight, it only took around an hour and a half. Staggering to think I've written all this, I don't know how long it would take me to get through it if i were reading it all for the first time. Anyways, im putting something from my little library online becuase i have nothing better to do.
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I had a dream where I had figured out the pattern to life, and I was changing it. Everything that viced me or bothered me was gone. I had a house, and in it was everything Id ever wanted, material and otherwise. I find it interesting that she was there. Asleep in my bed when I came home. I didn't expect to see her but when I thought about it I wasn't surprised at all.
On to unrelated things. I dwelled on the fact that Im a junior again tonight. I should be a semester away from the rest of my life, from the real part of my life but instead Im a year and a semester away. This blows. Latley I feel like im just barely keeping my head above water, I feel deppression stirring somewhere inside of me. How tragic that depression is such a familiar thing that I can recognize it just i recognize hunger or fatigue. To be honest this all didn't come up until I came home, at school I've mostly been thinking about 3 things, academics, whats happening here at home, and how to manage myself living among the 15 yearolds. Why the hell did i have to go and fail junior year?
My back hurts and i feel like an old man.
DATE UNKNOWN
I had a dream where I had figured out the pattern to life, and I was changing it. Everything that viced me or bothered me was gone. I had a house, and in it was everything Id ever wanted, material and otherwise. I find it interesting that she was there. Asleep in my bed when I came home. I didn't expect to see her but when I thought about it I wasn't surprised at all.
On to unrelated things. I dwelled on the fact that Im a junior again tonight. I should be a semester away from the rest of my life, from the real part of my life but instead Im a year and a semester away. This blows. Latley I feel like im just barely keeping my head above water, I feel deppression stirring somewhere inside of me. How tragic that depression is such a familiar thing that I can recognize it just i recognize hunger or fatigue. To be honest this all didn't come up until I came home, at school I've mostly been thinking about 3 things, academics, whats happening here at home, and how to manage myself living among the 15 yearolds. Why the hell did i have to go and fail junior year?
My back hurts and i feel like an old man.