let it snow
i fucking miss my life. i miss all of my friends. all of them. i miss t and meghan and anthony, and i also miss jen and anya and matt.
i can't stop thinking about all the good times that i had before i went off track.
i can't miss it too much, because today is the best today of my life. i wouldn't change any of it. however, i feel as though the most carefree times, with the easiest happiness, have passed and can never come back. i shorted myself of those days.
i want to get drunk with my girls. i want to sit in the gazebo and laugh about stupid crap. i want those old things.
my life before death.
that statement is much less melodramatic than it seems.
i hate having so much time to think.
i can't stop thinking about all the good times that i had before i went off track.
i can't miss it too much, because today is the best today of my life. i wouldn't change any of it. however, i feel as though the most carefree times, with the easiest happiness, have passed and can never come back. i shorted myself of those days.
i want to get drunk with my girls. i want to sit in the gazebo and laugh about stupid crap. i want those old things.
my life before death.
that statement is much less melodramatic than it seems.
i hate having so much time to think.