one step...in which direction?

[abstractoffear]

...start looking away, this is getting ugly...
...something is going on, the photo albums open back up...
...where is this coming from? why does it pierce my ears?...
...why am I looking back? what happened to moving forward?...
...it's starting to hurt...like a paper cut that has been there for days...
...and you don't feel the pain until you look at it...
...a paper cut in my mind...in my heart...in my soul...
...my opinions shift with the sands...not stuck in an hourglass...
...only in place...like a plant...
...it can grow but it can never leave it's original spot...
...unless someone else moves it...but that's another story completely...
...when you look outside a window...everything seems so far away...
...even if it's right there against the glass...
...muted sounds...distorted colors...non existent and unaware of your own presence...
...oblivious to life on this side of the glass...where's the better place?
...are the spaces between two people glass?...easily shattered but strong enough to keep them out?
...it's all a fuzzy gray blur right now...
...not black...just a darker gray...