Actually, I've regressed over the last 4 years (almost to the day). I started updating my LJ July of 2005, wonder if there's a coincidence with that as well.
Anyway, it's been 1 step forward 2 steps back for about 4 years. I did conquer the insomnia though, which was major.
These quizzes keep saying I'm all outgoing and the life of the party, personable, take-charge and grab life by the horns... all while being totally spontaneous, while also getting things done with flair. Oh, and supposedly I'm super flirty too.
One could argue that once I get into the mood I am still gregarious and do go up to strangers at parties if I pass by and hear an interesting conversation. Oddly enough, what's most upsetting lately is that I can't drink or smoke the weeds. I have to be in a really good mood LIKE ELECTION DAY to even be able to feel like my body isn't going to flip out and make me feel like I'm going to have a stroke or a heart attack. This is just not fair!
But getting things done? Yeah, no. Plus changes in routine pump me full of anxiety, and the thought of doing a big tasks or having to getg anything done literally makes me sick. There are some pieces of mail I simply will not open. Sometimes leaving the house is wholly distasteful as well. I don't even look at people unless I have to, thank God for the .mp3 player when I'm food shopping.
Yes, most likely a good portion of this is that I am still not and will never be ache-free, and the Fibromyalgia has changed me forever, but I've had it since 1995, the physical symptoms are much better than when I was 25 if you can believe that. I think some of my physical limitations and aches are just those that regular old people in their 40s get, so I guess that's easier to swallow? (I'm 39)
I think yeah, Pisces are more prone to anxiety. 2nd sign more prone I'd say is Cancer.
I love October though, it means the unrelenting heat will soon be gone. For you it's opposite I'm sure, I don't have snow here. Pretty much May thru September is OMG GET IT OFF ME IT HURTS (sun) time! My dad says I'd be less depressed if I'd spend 10 mins out there, but I don't wanna ;)
Anyway, it's been 1 step forward 2 steps back for about 4 years. I did conquer the insomnia though, which was major.
These quizzes keep saying I'm all outgoing and the life of the party, personable, take-charge and grab life by the horns... all while being totally spontaneous, while also getting things done with flair. Oh, and supposedly I'm super flirty too.
One could argue that once I get into the mood I am still gregarious and do go up to strangers at parties if I pass by and hear an interesting conversation. Oddly enough, what's most upsetting lately is that I can't drink or smoke the weeds. I have to be in a really good mood LIKE ELECTION DAY to even be able to feel like my body isn't going to flip out and make me feel like I'm going to have a stroke or a heart attack. This is just not fair!
But getting things done? Yeah, no. Plus changes in routine pump me full of anxiety, and the thought of doing a big tasks or having to getg anything done literally makes me sick. There are some pieces of mail I simply will not open. Sometimes leaving the house is wholly distasteful as well. I don't even look at people unless I have to, thank God for the .mp3 player when I'm food shopping.
Yes, most likely a good portion of this is that I am still not and will never be ache-free, and the Fibromyalgia has changed me forever, but I've had it since 1995, the physical symptoms are much better than when I was 25 if you can believe that. I think some of my physical limitations and aches are just those that regular old people in their 40s get, so I guess that's easier to swallow? (I'm 39)
signed,
Debbie Downer
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Regarding the anxiety thing, I have that too. It manifested about 3 years ago. It comes and it goes. Usually around October for some odd reason.
I wonder if it's a pisces thing. My brother (March 6) has the same damn problem.
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I love October though, it means the unrelenting heat will soon be gone. For you it's opposite I'm sure, I don't have snow here. Pretty much May thru September is OMG GET IT OFF ME IT HURTS (sun) time! My dad says I'd be less depressed if I'd spend 10 mins out there, but I don't wanna ;)
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